OK, so I've made to day 9.....Things not going as well as I hoped. Wife came home on Friday and checked into a hotel. Says she needs to fall in love with me again. The problem is she thinks she's in love with some 19 y/o kid from Conneticut who she's been talking to online and on the phone for the last month or so. There's not a day that doesn't go by that I don't cry. I love my wife with all my heart, but she has closed her heart off to me and I can't seem to break back in. I'm so miserable right now. I don't know what else to do, I pray several times a day that she'll come home, but she keeps telling me she's waiting for a sign. I don't what kind of sign she's looking for, I mean she wants a sign from God. Everyday I want feel like just giving up, but then I see her (she's either come up to the house for dinner or we meet somewhere everyday since she's come home) and all I want to do is bring her home with me. I miss her so much. I miss having her in my life all the time. I miss coming home to her. I know I can't make her love me, but it's so hard right now. I feel like I'm the only one making an effort to save our marriage and I don't know how much more I can take.
Scott, I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. Your heart breaking is heard loud and clear. Please remember that the Love Dare is a 40 day journey that requires perseverance and resolve. Don't give up. Keep praying for your wife's eyes to be opened to the light of your love for her. Be reminded that God knows exactly what you are going through. Countless times in the Bible, God's people, His bride turned their backs on him to chase after newer and seemingly better ideas for their lives. Likewise, the Church, the Bride of Christ turns her back on her lover to chase after the alluring devices of this world. God knows what it is like to love someone with all His ability only to be rejected. But He never stops loving. Husband, love your wife just as Christ has loved the church, and give yourself up for her. Lastly, hold on as tightly as you can in your heart the promising truth that, "love never fails."
I know exactly how that feels. Stay strong and remember it is you that chooses to love. Sometimes when there is no more love to give you have to ask God to give you the love to carry on.
I thought my wife was messing around and became extremely jealous and messed up. I am not cured of my jealousy or my anger but I am working very hard on it and asking God to come through for me. It is hard to love someone who you think is cheating on you but I have found that crying out to God for his help is the only way I can carry on loving the other person.
I will keep you in my prayers.