For today's dare I decided to call my husband to complete the dare. He didn't answer his phone so I left a message, "Hello (husbands name) I'm called to say that I hope you had a great night at work. I also wanted you to know that I'm so glad that you are a part of the Cole Outdoors team. I'm so proud of you for accomplishing this goal. You created your DVD and even got on TV. That is so great!. I hope you have a nice evening." (My husband is an avid hunter and last year he joined a hunting team where he is on a DVD and also on the Outdoors Life Network.) There was no response, but once again I completed the dare so I'm happy.
God has truly been working on overload in my life these past couple of days. He is filling the voids and taking the hurt and pain away. He is filling me with His joy and peace. My prayers are changing and my focus is changing. My desire to be more like Christ is growing deeper and deeper every day.
The storms come, but I have Christ. My desire to be like Him in every situation is stronger than ever. This morning I believe I sliped up. I found out that my husband called the person that I'm living with to make sure that I have a place to live until summer comes. We go to court on Tuesday to find out if I am able to get back into the house. If I have a place to stay, then my husband will be able to use that in court against me. He will be able to tell the judge that I have a place to live and that I do not need back into the house. I was upset. I was angry. My friend said that maybe he called because he was concerned. My immediate response was, "He's not being nice. I'm calling my lawyer. He put you on the spot so now he can use that against me in court on Tuesday." Holy Spirit, knock. knock. Who am I to judge. Who am I do question his motives.
My prayers? God, help me to deal with this situation as you would. Change me. Mold me. Transfrom me into your image. Help me to keep my focus on your Lord. Your will be done in this situation and in my life. Give me the ability to accept it and understand it. Humble me. BE MY LIFE!
My focus is on Him and what He want me to learn from this situation.
You do not know why he called. Nor should you care. If it was for purposes of court, fine. Remember, no matter what happens you still have Christ, who has promised to bless the desires of your heart. And He never breaks a promise. Now, do not think that means because you "think" you desire is your husband that means you get him back.... That bases of desire goes much deeper than you can imagine. I thought the same thing, but I came to realize what my hearts true desires were.
If it was for court. What does he gain? Something of this world. Whoopi.. Give him a pat on the back. He cannot match anything on this earth to what you have.
Your right Sean. Shortly after I found out, I truly didn't care. I understand what you mean about the desires of my heart. Sometimes I feel that my heart desires my husband, but my true desires are to have a marriage with God first, to live a life walking in Christ, to share God's love, and so much more. The desires don't necessarily include him. I pray and hope to share all of this with my husband, but ultimately, God knows what is best with me. And, just like you said, though my husband is unwilling to let me share God's loev with him, I know one day I will share it with someone. And that is the biggest desire of my heart!
At some point throught the dares, God revealed to me that He would grant the desires of my heart only when my heart aligned with His heart... and on His timing. It's still a work in progress, but I find that when my heart and God's heart is aligned and at His timing, I can't run from His blessings... they overcome me. My desire became no longer to save my marriage, but to please God. It's an awesome thing.
BTW. My divorce is final now... went through very quickly. Though my counselor believed that I was ready for independent study, I will begin Christian couseling again now that I am no longer married.
Your desires were much easier to obtain than you thought, I bet!
It's becoming almost second nature.
Soon, Christ will make it first in your heart!