So here I am working on day 8. I have discreetly burned the negative aspect of my husband and focused on the positive. It wasn't so hard to burn that piece of paper. I don't know so much that I am jealous but more insecure and fearful mostly about our relationship with each other and if he is just saying things because those are the words I want to hear. What I really need to do is stop checking on our marriage every few days as to where my husband's feelings are towards me. This could have a negative impact on our relationship. What I need to do is look at his actions. He is becoming a better communicator. He also gives me a few minutes each day to just talk with him in private. He has become more affectionate, even though it is me who usually starts. At least he doesn't push me away. He jokes with me more often. And he says is trying to learn to love me again. I am so thankful that he says he has never cheated on during the bad times of our marriage, even though it hurts me when he told me how many times his was almost ready to pack his bags and leave. But he never did.
I never realized how much damage I have caused in our relationship because of my self-centered attitude, my disrespect for him, and providing him with any love at all. I don't know how he ever endured all this.
It's great to see your progress. Keep it up!
Leslie Holmes
Community Builder