Re: day 8

Day 8 Love is not jealous So I didn’t get the chance to talk to him today. He is busy doing things to get situated before his job interview. I wanted to do this in person, but I already knew that he would get weird on me. I know that is not an excuse for not doing it in person. I did try to call though but he was preoccupied. So I wrote him an email. This was hard for me today because there wasn’t anything real recent that was a success. So I wrote this instead: I know we are living separate lives and despite that i still have hope for us in the future. I know you are dealing with things that i don't understand, but just remember i'm always here to listen and be there for you. Even through all this I just wanted to let you know that I'm proud of you. Not just proud of who you were, but who you are and proud of what the future brings for you. I know God is going to bless you with so much in the future. With all that is happening you still strive to be a great father and I find that amazing in so many ways. Love you... Natalie It doesn’t specify anything, but it says how I really feel. And it’s words of encouragement in so many ways.

Great job! You did the best you could with the dare and that is all that matters. I had to realize myself that there are just some dares you cannot do exactly how it says due to each of our situations, but you do what you can and let God do the rest.

yeah i know.  he did reply.  he said

Thank you for your kind words.  theya re always uplifting :) i thank you for the prayers.  i think they r working lol you know i love you.:)

Yes i know it sounds like he's coming around or feeling what i feel, but he's already told me that he loves me but isn't sure if he is in love with me.  so sometimes i can not read too much into what he says or does.  He means well it's just i'm not sure what is going on with him  He in and out because of his ptsd and it's hard to tell what is real with him.  But at least i did it and i got a response.  Did you ever receive a response?

Nat. I replied to you other post that was the same. But to add. Your tesitmony each day is what will guide his days as well.

As for him saying he is not in love with you. That is following his heart. If you have not done so, read leading your heart in the appendix.

Natalie -

No I never got a response to the email I sent my husband, but I had expected I wouldn't. I completed the dare as I was supposed to and that is what mattered.