The beginning of Day 8 looked hopeful. I thought this day was going to be easy and I would have no problem doing it. I did not however take into account that I am a very jealous person. I am not jealous of what others have but when it comes to my husband I find that I am often jealous of the people around him because they seem to draw his attention away very easily. This is something that I have struggled with for as long as I can remember. I have very low self-esteem and I am always thinking that he will find someone better or he could do much better. So today was not as easy as I thought it would be. It doesnt help matters that part of our problem at the moment is that my husband has taken to talking to two different women on the internet,,,one of which I personally know and the other I dont. In the past month, he has flirted with this one girl in particular that I know and he has been doing it right in front of me. I have never trusted this girl because I have seen the way she acts around my husband and her behavior is unacceptable. I have always been nice to this particular woman because she is my sister-in-laws little sister. I even apologized to her a few weeks ago because I was rude to her after my husband had been flirting with her right in front of me. So jealousy is a major issue with me. Today was supposed to be a good day though. We were having my daughters 6th birthday party and when our whole family gets together we always have a good time. Right around the time the party started this girl shows up with her sister and it really got under my skin. I had not invited her and after recent events did not really care to have her in my house. I did not say anything negative to her though. I just said hi and asked her if she wanted some cake or something to drink and left it at that. I didnt make any rude comments and tried not to be rude to her in any way and my husband pretty much stayed away from her because I had told him how much it had bothered me to watch him act that way around her. I tried my hardest today not to be jealous and I think I did an ok job of it. I wouldnt say I succeeded fully because I did have jealous thoughts today. But every time I had one of those thoughts I stopped for a minute and prayed to myself and got myself back on track. This morning I burned my list of negative things and it made me feel very good because I dont want to focus on the negative. I want to focus on the positive and help that list to grow. I also told my husband how proud of him I was for getting his tradesman plumbers license. He worked very hard and for a very long time to get this and he deserves it. I will continue to pray and drive the jealous thoughts I have away.
Whoa.... First. There is a justifiable jealousy. You need to remember that. But at least you can see how God feels when you put something or someone in front of him! At the same time you are obligated to protect your marriage. Now, that is not saying that someone should act like a nut, but Christ like. Now, your husband did a great job by respecting you. But that is his job. Now, if the other girl still try's you need to let her know that you do not appreciate her actions. Be nice, not negative, but stern. And this is you and your family, does not matter who she is related to. And as for your self esteem... There is no one better for him. That is why Gods gift to both of you was each other.
I need to say thank you both...Crystal & Sean. After reading what you both wrote, I cryed. I realize just how jealous I have been of my husband & all the while the very things I am jealous of is because he joined the military to better our lives. I have been jealous & selfish...what an eye opener..Thank you & God bless you both