I thought this was gonna be one easy dare. Little did I know what emotional turmoil I was gonna go through. Moving from the previous night when my husband chose not to say anything about three things that irritate him about him, I chose to let him be as I realised he was looking for an opportunity to fight me.
Sunday morning I called my mother early in the morning. My husband was in the same room so he could hear our conversation (my said). I referre to him answering a question my mother asked me. He then interjected in the background saying dont refer to me, don't talk about me. I was briefly disoriented. Anyway I couldn't say anything about him to my mum even answer the questions she was asking about him. So I told her that she can ask him or talk to him as he didn't want me to comment anything about him to her.
He was then livid and started accusing me of trying to put him in bad light to people. I wondered what he wanted me to say to my mum when he had told me not to say anything about him. So I kept quite and moved into the next room. I wrote him an sms and told him that I wasn't going to get into an argument with him. I asked him what he wanted me to say to mom when he had forbade me from speaking abt him. I asked him to better be quite rather than to speak to me disrepectfully or in an unpleasant way. That is one way I ddealt with an otherwise unpleasant situation. Kept quite and smsed my concerned to minimise confrontation, and it worked coz he never said anything about that after that.
We then went to church after church I asked him to take us to the vegetable market to pick some things. I was feeling out of sorts and asked him to go pick the stuff we needed. He was livid and said why not u. I usually buy myself but today I wasn't feeling alright. I kept quite and told him to drive back home if he could not go in the store . He did and said I can't just push his buttons whenever I think like it, and that was the reason why our marriage was falling apart. Everything is my fault, he does not look at his actions (even his adultery and it's consequences). I kept quite, when he realised I was quite he kept quite. The thing is I usually do everything around the house and he just sits on the couch and watches television. He believes women should do everything around the house, even though we both have regular jobs. He will never volunteer to do anything, and when I ask him he goes ballistic and says do it yourself or what r u doing (even though he can see that I am very busy).
So after we got home I went in the bedroom and had a nap. I didn't want to be around him coz I felt I was going to snap. He gave our son a snack (surprisingly, without being asked). My son came and joined me and we both slept. When I woke up so many thought s were running thru my mind. Like how I want to give up and maybe look for my own place with my son. Sometimes I just feel so spent and used. But I realise this is a journey betwwen me and God, and that's keeping me put. Am completely trusting God but I am battling to stay in, not knowing what the future is, going thru the hurt and pain. Putting up with the negativeness, the trash talk is just a lil too much at times. But I am cool. I know God is incontrol and whatever happens is the best for me...and I am learning to put my trust in him.
First... You must get rid of any expectations when it comes to the dares. Even though you are trusting Christ to do them, the expectations are a problem. This dare is a perfect example.
These dares are not what we usually think. Because it is a journey between you and Christ the outcomes will be what Christ needs them to be for you to be molded. If He wants you to be humble, He will put you in a position to be humble.
The hardest thing for us to do is completely trust Christ. By doing so requires a complete change. The dares will get you there... So be patient. Stop worrying about what he does and does not do around the house. Be careful when asking about things (like going to the store) that you know will upset him. Because deep down you may be manipulating the situation, just to see a reaction.