The new year has begun & it brings with it a new life for me. Today my husband talked to the kids & is "officially" out. He spent all week packing & moving and "arranging" things. He even talked to me about the schedule for having the kids again & though he was mostly satisfied with it, he didn't like having them every Friday... I explained to him that since Friday is his day off and he can spend that time with his kids, otherwise he will have to find a babysitter or daycare for the kids while he is at work on any other day. He of course was upset, but I told him I am NOT changing the arrangement and "babysitting" them while he's working just so they can sleep at his house becasue he won't give up his Fridays for them. We were able to talk it out and agreed that he will have them alternating weekends Thursday night through Monday morning & on my weekends with the kids he will alternate his work schedule so that he can have them on Wednesday night until Friday morning.
It's funny becasue I didn't read todays dare until after the conversation. Most of the conversations was very civil. There was a point when my husband started to lose his temper a little bit when I kept reminding him I am not a babysitter for his days with the kids. And to be fair, I also almost lost it when I reminded him that since he will be keepting them Sunday nights on his weekends, that he will have to take the kids to church & he told me that he cannot promise me every Sunday & that I cannot tell him what to do with the kids. I had a moment of anger, but luckily it passed quickly & I was able to recognize it before I was able to react with it. I told my husband it was very important that the kids get used to going to church every Sunday no matter whose house they were staying in becasue next year when they begin Sunday school they will have no choice to not go becasue they "don't feel like it". He amazingly agreed. We will see how that works out for us all.
Yesterday was my husbands birthday (and New Years Day). It was hard for me not to go all out and bake him a cake & take him out to dinner like we always do. I made plans with my family & only breifly saw my husband. I made sure I wished him a happy brithday. Later, my husband asked me to help him move the couch & I litterally could not help even if I wanted to. He got very upset & tried moving it on his own which he was unable to do. He left & I didn't see him again until today. He came up to me and apologized to me for losing his temper with me over the couch. I was surprised, but I told him it was OK.
I am doing pretty good. I had a few minutes of teariness when he was talking to the kids about leaving, but I tried to hide it from him as much as possible and I was able to stop quickly. I am very thankful for the blessings the past year has brought me & I am praying for a new year of more blessings. I am trying to see the positive in everything... though I have come to see how hard it is when you are surrounded by so much negativity. I am so grateful God has been so generous with me & just pray He will continue to bless me and guide me all the days of my life.
As far as the rest of the dares go, I have questions. If they are dares that require contact with my husband, should I call him to ask/tell him whatever it is, or should I only do it if we physically see eachother?
At times you may need to be creative with the dares. If you can complete them without seeing him, then so be it. But if it requires seeing him then you need to be more creative. Remember, the dares are also a way in trusting Christ and doing them no matter what you think. So, make sure you do what you can to complete them.