My passport that was to start my new life with my husband in Korea is in, I will pick it up tonight. I went on facebook this morning & found a picture of my husband in a car with his arm around another woman posted just yesterday. I dont know what elseto say besides I love him, but I think it is time I truelly accept where his life is now. I am not a thought in the back of his head. He has moved on & the sad thing is he was honest when he said that he is staying married for the money & nothing else. I am saddened by this but I know that the good Lord has plans for me. I was hoping that maybe my husband was warming his heart towards our marriage.
I have a lot to pray about today. reality is here & with Gods help I will figure out what to do. I was actually thinking about visiting my husband in Korea, to see for myself his life, to be able to talk to him in person, I am beginning to think my place is not by my husbands side anymore.
I know that God will show me the way. I know that God has beautiful plans for me & my future. Right now I am hurting....
onewithGod
Linda, sorry to hear about that. But as I said in my last post to you, I see that your life is on a new track filled with blessings.
Just curious. How much longer is his tour over there?
He has been there for 4 months so at least 6 months left to go. I talked to my husband yesterday, he says he gave me 8 months, he wont forgive me, I see now that the love he had for me was conditional. I was told that some men do this when in the Army, they listen to bunk mate therapists, friends telling them that they dont need their spouses.
I will tell you this. I traveled extensively for my living. And it was hard to stay invested in my marriage not being there. I got caught up in a number of things like I was a single man. And yes, the enviroment around you is very influential.
But, there comes a time when God will not stand for it. And allow him to do things his way, and screw it all up. As you can see that is happening right now. The problem is, your husband, is he willing to listen. But your testimony and happiness will be a huge part of that.
Your journey started for a reason. Probably because you are the one who was willing first to accept this. And I watched you through this site and your journey is strong, you will is for Christ and He will carry you through all of it.