I need to be a better person for myself & for God...this dare is hard for once again my husband is 10,000 miles away, but I do already see the changes in me & how I have been reacting to them. I believe Matthew is as well. I deceided to split the list again & listed things he will see, maybe sense & things he wont be able to see. I am going to stop being so negative, selfish, judgemental of things he says, rude or irritated over the small stuff. I will be kind, loving, forgiving, patient & selfless.
Things he wont be able to see: I will keep a tider house, one to be proud of.
Journay, pray, read the bible & good christian books
Continue to reach out to other good people.
I got irritated talking to Matthew yesterday, letting some of the jabs he took hit me soild, I didnt react the way I normally do but I need to keep practicing patients & being nonjudgemental.
I am changing myself for God, for me. No matter what the future brings, I know I will be a winner on both sides. I know God loves me & because I love him I can do this changing, in is scary & painful, it makes me weiry, but it is worth all the hard work & reprograming to be the person the Good LKord wants me to truely be...................
Don't get weary... God will carry you through it all. Trust 100% in him.