Well.....I clearly see that I need to make more time for things around the house. Yes I do spend a lot of time on Facebook and e-mail.....Probably more than I realize. especially since I am out of a job. I feel this is my way to connect with the outside world. I was so use to talking to people in a daily basis so this is what I do to I fill that void. My house is clean for the most part, but I think I need to re-focus my time on better things to do. My animals don't get their walks everyday like they should and I could be doing a little more organization here. I am going to limit myself on how much time i am on the interenet! The most recent time I overreacted was yesterday when my husband & I got into a fight. I fed into his negativity. It didn't get me anywhere except more hurt than anything. So often while intoxicated, my husband says hurtful things and will not remember the next day. Out of love I need to remember that It's not him.....it's the booze. I also need to keep reminding him that I love him. Last night he went to a friends house and came home. He was very quiet and distant. I made a wonderful dinner. He ate and went upstairs to get ready for bed. I went to tell him goodnight. I could tell that something was wrong. He started to cry and apologized to me for not remembering the mean and awful things he says to me. He asked me why I bother to stay. I told him out of love is why I do. I strongly believe that one day God is going to redeem him and bring him closer to him. I know God will help my husband realize that it is God he needs to rely on and not the booze! Today's dare was a little hard for me. I really had to think about this one.
I'm glad he is responding positively to you, and I'm also glad that you are learning and growing yourself through this process.