I am doing the dares to the best of my ability... We are separated so it is difficult.
Today I called him on my way home the office. I asked how he was feeling. He was not as friendly as he was yesterday and sounded irritated that I called. I tried to make small talk. He started to complain about our son driving him crazy. The boy hasnt done anything wrong. He is a good boy but he is self centered and the world should evolve around him. I told him I was sorry. He told me he had to go. Our call lasted a whole 4 minutes. I was unable to ask him the questions.
Since I wanted to attempt to complete the dare, the following is our text:
ME: Tell me 3 things I do that upset or irritate you
HIM: What game are you playing now??? I dont want to play!!
ME: I am not playing a game. I honestly want to know what I do to up set you.
HIM: Dont know what to tell you.
ME: What makes you get angry with me?
HIM: This right now!!!
ME: Hope you have a nice evening. Good night.
I had no feels towards his reply. I guess I have worked through the initial hurt and fustration that comes when you are first separated. I began this journey years ago but as I attempted to give it to God and trust he would never fail me, I never truely gave it up. I cried, begged, manipulated, hired an attorney, sent my own set of divorce papers all in hopes to get some reaction from my husband. I know God was / is working on me. For the first time, I saw what I did to hurt our marriage. I was no longer blaming him for everything.
I pray for those that are beginning their journey that God gives you peace, grace and strength. I pray that God continues to protect me from the enemy.
So what did you really get out of the dare? Most would say nothing because they were not able to ask.
Were you humbled? Does this show Christ is the one you must trust?
You trusted Christ to attempt it, that is success in itself. Remember that.
And remember, when you are able to love Christ first, it is then, you will be able to love your husband better.