I became upset and instead of stoppng to pray and calm down. I called him and was hostile and rude because I was upset about something. He did not want to engage in a huge argument so he hung up. Which of course pisses me off. I regret calling him. I regret yelling. I wish I could remember to STOP and not do this destructive behavior. We were able to discuss things later more calmly. I think things ended on a good or ok note at least. I must try harder. SO MUCH HARDER. I'm just so scared and worried he is still lying and still seeing that other woman. I know I must keep praying. I should do these dares like I am doing them for CHRIST?? perhaps that will help me better to focus on that. They are for my husband but really they are really ultimately about Christ right?? becoming like Christ. My husband was able to share the three things. They were not huge surprises to me. I know I must change them. I know I have to do everything in my power to change them because my marriage depends on it.
"I should do these dares like I am doing them for CHRIST?? "....
If you are not doing them for Christ, then you are trying to play God. Still trying to control things you cannot and doing it "your" way...
HK, here is a little secret we all here have learned the hard way.... If we could change it, and if our way works, we would not be here in the first place. And then we realize that the saying "insanity is defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result".
Again, this is a journey between you and Christ. You need to build that relationship with Him. He will humble you, He will mold you... Everyone of these situations are blessings. You will see.
Remember------ BE SLOW TO SPEAK AND QUICK TO LISTEN!
BE STILL.... FOR I AM GOD. <--- You need to let Him take care of the concerns you have. I know it is easier said than done... But, dont concern yourself right now with the other woman situation. YOU CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! Only Christ can. And right now, He needs to mold you.... Because if your husband is seeing her or not, no matter what. Things between the both of you cannot get better, and certainly not oneness as Christ intended, until you can be that testimony Christ wants you to be.
Thank you Sean. You have given good advice and I also will try to remember it. But it is hard. The pain and the hurt is devastating. I need God more now than before.
It is devastating because you put your trust and faith into a human relationship and only come to Christ in times of need.
When you have that relationship with Christ, He will never let you down. He will fill all your voids, and you will have comfort.
Remember, love Christ first, and then you will be able to love others better.
OK Sean....be the testimony Christ wants me to be. Focus on Christ. Not my husband because that is only making me sad and angry. I try to give these feelings to GOD as they arise. Sometimes they are more intense then others. Any suggestions you have about this?
I find it kind of interesting this past week that while I tried my best to do the dares my husband seemed more stressed and irritable. Partly because of work stress. Reminded me of the show when the wife kept ignoring or rejecting what her husband would do everyday and he almost gave up several times.
My suggestion... When they start to arise, take it to Christ in prayer. If you cannot commit to private prayer at the moment. Just ask where you are for the comfort and direction. Show Christ you depend on Him ever minute. And do not forget about praise!
Dont pay too much attention to his stress. The more you work with Christ the more Christ will work in his life. Conviction, and many other things will start on him.
This is where your testimony should shine through.
Ok Thanks Sean. Will do. The more I stop and turn to Christ in prayer the easier it will become. Just need to remember and actually do it when the occasion arises.
And when you are not in prayer, be in praise!