Day 40—Love is a Covenant
“Write out a renewal of
your vows and place them in your home. Perhaps, if appropriate, you could
make arrangements to formally renew your wedding vows before a minister and
with family present. Make it a living testament to the value of marriage
in God's eyes and the high honor of being one with your mate.”
is it really already Day 40?!?! Feels like just yesterday I committed to this
journey, but yet sooo much has happened!
It was shared
with me how significant the number 40 is in the Bible.
"And it came to pass at the end of forty days, that Noah opened the window
of the ark which he had made". And what did Noah see? A new beginning. The flood waters had receded and the earth was new
again. All the unclean things had been swept away by the flood.
Moses also experienced 40 days.
Exodus 24:18 "Then
Moses entered the cloud as he went on up the mountain. And he stayed on the
mountain forty days and forty nights."
What was he doing there? He was receiving the Commandments from God. The covenant between God and man.
The children of Israel wandered in
the desert for 40 years!
Thankfully it is a 40 day journey
and not 40 years, however the lessons and concepts learned are a lifetime
journey with my husband. This has been a journey for me to draw closer to God
and my husband despite my husband not realizing it. As said in Genesis – we will
have a new beginning with Christ at the end of the 40 days and as said in
Exodus – we will have a renewed covenant with God and our spouse.
The experience and challenge of
loving my husband is something that I know will never come to an end. It goes
on for the rest of my life. The dare calls me to write out a renewal of vows
and if appropriate make arrangements for a vow renewal. As this is all in God’s
timing – not mine – I am/we are not at a place whatsoever to do this right now.
Writing them out is a work in progress for me and I hope to one day share them
with my husband. Instead I will reflect on what this journey has taught me thus
*I have learned what it truly means to walk with Christ
*I have learned patience
*I have learned humility
*I have learned to listen wholeheartedly
*I have learned what unconditional love is
*I have learned to ask for guidance
*I have learned to seek wisdom
*I have learned how to give and seek forgiveness
*I have learned the importance of making margin for Christ
*I have learned the importance of Christ being the center of
*I have learned that God is always communicating with us whether we are listening or not
*I have learned marriage is a covenant not a contract—it is for the benefit of others and comes with
unlimited responsibility. It has no expiration date. It is “till death do us
part.” It is not a contract that can
be broken with mutual consent.
learned the power of prayer
learned what true commitment is
I now know
keeping this covenant of marriage is not something I can do in my own strength.
“He alone is able to fulfill the demands of His own promises. He alone is able
to forgive the receivers of His covenant when they fail to uphold their part of
the agreement. But the Spirit of God is within you by virtue of your faith in
His Son and the grace bestowed upon you in salvation.” I now CAN exercise my
role as covenant keeper, no matter what may arise to challenge my faithfulness
to it. The enemy canNOT stop me!
I was really feeling Satan’s presence—I was discouraged, was feeling doubt, and
was battling thoughts/feelings I have to continue to lay at Christ’s
feet. I had written a “peaceful” response to my husband’s harsh email, but felt
God telling me not to send it right now, so I didn’t. Not positive why, but I
don’t need to know. I am content with just listening to Him and obeying.
woke up with a renewed strength as I do every day, but today was different. God
in His own ways was telling me to keep going—to NOT give up. He has never left nor
will He ever. He knows when I need that reassurance and so kindly gives it.
I committed to this journey of 40 days and by
God telling me to keep going—to NOT give up—I will be committing to another 40
days. I dare to persevere— to take
hold of my marriage and still never let go. Round 2 starts tomorrow…
Dont be mistaken. This journey is a lifetime! it just took 40 days to get you going. God will continue to use you everyday. Remember you are a testimony.