Ok so yusterday was Day 40. I finished the book.. i am not going to start over.. i left my marriage to God and thats it. If he its his will he will bring me & my husband back together. If not then what kan i do? ive done n tried everything possible there is to try.
Yusterdays service at my church was the most AMAZING SERVICE. I felt so good and peaceful wen service was done.. at the altar i prayed so much over my marriage and family (my daughter,husband and i)
Im not gunna lie in finishing the book i was waiting for sumthing spectacular to happen yusterday but notin really did. But wat did happen yusterday was my husband told me that there is alot going on in his house and hed rather spend the money helping his family out then spend money on the divorce. (so he isnt doing the divorce) I believe that now i feel like there is more time for God to werk on thinqs wit him. The only down part of that is my husband was blaming me for puttin him on childsupport and its so much money a month and i am gunna leave him broke.. That he doesnt really wanna come around my house kus he doesnt really want to b around me or my family. :(
He wants to split up Thanksgiving wit our daughter. He wants to have her half the day and me the other half. which really really hurts.. Wit the holidays comin i wanted to spend it as a family n it is wats killin me the most.. This is not the life i wanted for our 9 month old daughter. =/
Well Thats it i guess. i kant post journals so idk how i will keep anyone updated on wats goin on. i kan only leave komments on post frum now on.
God Bless each and every one of you. I pray everyones marriage will b restored.. Amen!
Trust in Christ. And I am sure that this will be the only Thanksgiving that will be without.
When these times are hard and things are not what you want, just remember Christ will NEVER give you more than you can handle. But He will give you what you need to grow and learn, you just need to be open enough to listen.
Well now he told me That he wants to spend the holidays together bkus he wants to b wit his daughter. Either spend it at my house or me at his house. Which really really suprised me.. But last nite it was jus a mess he wanted to talk to me and it jus got ugly he was crying and blaming me for messing up his life and it was all my fault we split up etc.. etc.. he jus got me soooooo upset i was pissed basically. Then when i left he texted me sorry. i dont get him.. But lets see what God has in store.. Honestly im not even trying anymore =/
Start your dares from day one. So much more will come from it now that you are on a path. In the beginning you had much grief and I am sure that many of the dares could be expanded upon now that you are in a much better relationship with Christ. Don't give up. There is more molding to be done.