This dare took me a while to do, I prayed to find the right words, and thought and rethought and wrote and rewrote, but eventually I did send the letter through email to him. And it was hard for me to do, I was unsure of what his reaction would be. I was afraid that things would blow up; we have managed to go so long without any big arguments, and I really don't handle an argument well. When he sat down to his computer I was a coward, I went up to the bedroom to hide. After a bit he came up and he poured himself out to me, it was like the letter broke the dam that has been holding everything in. It was amazing. I sit here still amazed. It would be easy to say that I did this, but I never would have gotten here to this spot without God's love and I thank Him and praise Him for showing me.
I know that we still have issues as a couple, but I also know deep inside that we are truly a couple. I have to have courage and faith and believe. I can be such a stubborn person at times and I am so thankful that my hunny knows this and loves me anyway, despite my faults.I am reminded of the Pastor's words from last Sunday and it seems the message is tailored just for me, even though I know I am not the only one who needs these words:
Is it possible to live without shame, fear, guilt, and resentment?It is possible when we remain in a relationship with the Son.Continuing to read and hear his word helps us remain in that relationship.Our relationship with Jesus is one of constant growth.It is a relationship not based on what we do, but who we are.We are heirs of God’s promise, children of God.Therefore we are free to love our neighbors and ourselves.We are free to be.
(thank you Pastor Jon)
Remember when you are doing dares. Have no expectations of them. Only thing you need to do is trust Christ with the dare. If it is a rejection then He wants you to be humble, but I have to tell you. Listen in this situation. This is Christ telling you there is no need to worry about things. He will always carry you through.