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Love Fulfills Dreams

leo — Thu, 28 Mar 2013 09:55:29 GMT

To day is day 38. The day went good until she came how from work she made dinner and didn't say anything about it to me until I walked into the living room and then it was I made dinner if you want same so I said yes and then thanked her for dinner. We started to talk about us and what was going on and she said to me that it was over and that she had no more love for me and that I needed to move on with my life to stop talking to her kids that out of 4 of them 3 are over 18, she then said to me that what was I going to do once the divorce went through her kids wouldn't talk to me any more , and then more hurtful things came out of her mouth,I didn't say anything to her and then she asked me to move out and then I said that I wasn't leaving and that we should work on our marriage and she said no I don't want to its over that's it , so i went to see a friend until i had to go to work. She is making Easter dinner at the house for the family on Sunday and she told me she didn't care if i was there or not it was about her and her kids bout if i was there i was and if not then who cares. I will be there it is still my family to and i love them anyways. The she told me about how bad and her dad where fighting and today is her birthday and if he didn't show up and wish her happy birthday that it was over with her dad to so that made me think and it came to me that i should call him and let him know that he needed to fix things with her and maybe take her out to lunch for her birthday and to call her tonight and set it up. He said that he would do it az soon as he hung up with me so. I believe that was the right thing to do to make her happy on her birthday. Even if she wants the divorce just keep showing her unconditional love. This is so hard letting go of the flesh and leading your heart its like the mind has control of my heart but i keep telling my self thats its about me and god now i have to let go right and let god deal with her, she keeps telling me that god is looking out for her and then she tells me that her heart is in a black place right now if you can figure that out.i will keep doing the dares and i will not move out and i will lay it at gods feet for him to work on her and pray for her.

Failing miserably

ESM75 — Mon, 05 Nov 2012 19:28:51 GMT

I eeked through day 37. We prayed at the dinner table. I'm not ready to ask her to pray on a regular basis. I'm just learning how to do it myself. I was raised catholic and I've gone decades without walking into a church. I went to a non-denominational one yesterday. We had been going together to a methodist one, but that fell by the wayside. Now I'm trying to learn something that has always been foreign to me then teach it to someone who has totally given up. She hates me and the only thing I can do to make her happy is to leave. I am staying at a condo we own, away from her, and my son, and I'm deeply depressed. I had been feeling better yesterday until she packed up the stuff to take with me and then when we sat down to talk, she told me she can't live with me any more. This is after I had spent the whole weekend taking care of our son while she stayed at the condo and had an entire weekend to herself. I have Asperger's and I'm prone to meltdowns which I'm still having it. She is resistant to doing anything to change the situation and invalidates everything I say. Simply changing her approach would work wonders, but she scoffs at the idea. She said that she wants to finish school, get a job making three tiimes as much so she doesn't need me around and to have her parents move to town to replace everything I do for her that she ignores. Am I supposed to pray that she gets that? If anyone does respond, please don't chew me out for breaking the love dare rules; I know I'm doing poorly at it. I'm hurting bad and have nobody to turn to.

Day 78 - Love Fulfills Dreams

BeckyA — Mon, 10 Sep 2012 14:34:13 GMT

My husband worked the entire day of this dare. It fell on a Saturday, and he only rarely has to work on Saturdays. Usually, it’s only about 2 hours.

I made plans to spend the day with my in laws, doing some shopping and just spending time together. We assumed that my husband would be home at some time during the day. He messaged me after noon and said that things had gone badly at work and it would take at least 10 hours to fix. We had a really bad storm that afternoon, so I messaged him to let him know that we were hanging out in the basement. We occasionally have tornadoes, and one was seen north of where we live. I don’t always take those warnings seriously, so I thought he’d like to know. By 7pm, I still had not heard anything else from him. I asked for some update on work. In the meantime, the whole family went to dinner and went to a new department store. I took his sister and her daughter home. When we got home, it was after our daughter’s bedtime, so she went straight to bed.

An hour later, she came back downstairs saying she couldn’t sleep. She never has to go to bed without saying good night to both of us. She wanted to stay with me until he got home. I still did not even know when that would be. At 10, he finally sent a message that he was getting ready to leave. At 11:15, he finally called… he had just driven his car into a ditch right outside the base gates. I didn’t ask questions… just got my father in law to watch my daughter, got my husband a soda, and went to find him. We took care of the car, got it towed, and I called it in to the insurance company. I thank God that my husband seemed okay. He was handling everything calmly, but asked if I could just take care of it all from there. It was all too much for him.

As far as the dare goes – my husband’s dream is to pay off all of our debt and open a coffee shop. (I didn’t know about the coffee shop part until this past month. He’s starting to open up about some of his dreams!) The first time I did the dare, I started to work on how I would help with this. I have paid off a couple of things in the past month, and we have started talking about money a lot more. We’ve had a lot of big expenses with our vehicles, but with the improved communication, we’re getting through it together.

His dream...

Manorahsjoy — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 15:12:39 GMT

Spouse and I have been married for three years and in those years i have been at school pursing a degree.

Its a 4 year degree programme of which this September, I am entering the final year. All along spouse has wanted to start a family but i told him that i wanted to get the degree out of the way.

Initially, I didn’t plan to do a fourth year but that is the way it had been set up.

with all that has been going on, I wonder if he is ready to be a parent. I know for a fact that I have been looking forward to being a mother and that this is something that I feel can be done now that I will have the time and resources to be home with the child.

To show spouse that I am eager to have a family, I went out and bought diapers. I really did not want to do this but the dare said to do what he wants and not want I want or because he deserves it. So, I went out and got the diapers. I handed them over to him and he was so happy he didn’t know what to say.

I just stood there and prayed in my heart for me to say nothing. Well, he was so happy and asked how many more packs I needed. I shrugged my shoulders to say that I didn’t know. He went on smiling, hugged the diapers and just said he had no words to say.

Having kids is not an issue, I am about to complete my degree and I will have all the time to be a mother for as long as the Lord allows but I really needed to fulfil my dream and get a degree. so I guess now, I need to show that his dream is a priority to me now and I must admit that it feels kind of good to know that I can be a part of that.

I never saw it that he was allowing me to go after my academic dreams till now. It has not been easy for me especially when he uses that as an excuse for infidelity. To this day I have no word of anyone claiming to be carrying his child.

Well, rather than dwell on that. I will just stay focused and so what I can to make it his dream come true , as he says “ to have a baby with me is all that he ever wanted because he knows that I will take care of the kids”.

Day 38 - Love Fulfills Dreams

BeckyA — Mon, 30 Jul 2012 16:29:23 GMT

I had started mapping out the plan for fulfilling my husband’s dream earlier in the week. My husband is very fiscally responsible, while I am not. He would like us to be out of debt sooner rather than later, and I’m still dragging around my debt from before we were married. I had told him earlier in the week that I would do a budget for him from my salary, find some more to include in the amount that I give him every month, and find more that I can use to get some things paid off.

Although I haven’t yet gone over this budget with him, I have done it, and I found that I have more left over at the end of the month than I realized. Where has it all gone, though?! This past year, we paid off the truck, and if I give him more than I’ve been giving him, we can get the car paid off sooner. I should also be able to double my credit card payments if not triple them.

I spent the day messaging my husband about a job possibility for him near our home. I called him on my way home, and we talked the entire time. We came up with a dinner idea together, and I made dinner for the family. We sat down for dinner and talked about our day. Before going upstairs to play video games, my husband said good night. One of the things that came up during our really big fight was that he never says anything before going to play video games… just walks away from the family and does it. Now, he waits until our daughter is in bed and we’ve spent a few minutes watching tv together. There’s not much talking after she goes to bed, but we at least spend some time in the same room together.

Day 78 - Love still Fulfills Dreams

Jenn — Mon, 30 Apr 2012 05:17:48 GMT

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Day 78—Love still Fulfills Dreams

“Ask yourself what your mate would want if it was obtainable. Commit this to prayer, and start mapping out a plan for meeting some (if not all) of their desires, to whatever level you possibly can.”

Last round what immediately came to mind when thinking about what my husband would want if obtainable was me being a changed person—him having my support, trust, respect, affection, listening to him wholeheartedly, and putting him “first” (after God). I believe I honestly can say God has molded me and continues to mold me into the wife my husband desires. I feel like the list is endless when thinking about all the changes I’ve had within. It is absolutely amazing what can happen when you abandon yourself to Christ. My gratitude is always overflowing, but tonight I was thanking God for the connection we have. I have never looked forward to waking every day like I have since starting this journey just to see what He has in store for me—how can He mold me today? What work will I see around me? It is a lifetime journey that will have an everlasting purpose—love and delight yourself in the Lord that in turn reflects His love and delight for His children.

What came to mind this round was a lot different than last. My husband is really into biking. We have been talking a lot about me starting to ride with him. I’ve mentioned before I was really into soccer, which is a sport my husband never really cared about. What I have observed is when God displaces, He replaces. My desire to play soccer has completely diminished and has switched to truly wanting to share my husband’s passion of biking. A dream of his is to do the Seattle to Portland ride. It takes place every July and typically requires you to sign up a year in advance. We have recently been talking about doing it together next year. I have a long ways to go to get to his normal 30-40 mile bike rides, but I know together we can get to the 200 miles that the STP is. I am totally committed to the challenge of fulfilling this dream of my husband’s.

Day 38 - Love Fulfills Dreams

Jenn — Wed, 21 Mar 2012 03:02:14 GMT

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Day 38—Love Fulfills Dreams

What would my husband want if obtainable? When I ask myself that question, at this point what immediately comes to mind is me being a changed person. By that I mean him having my support, trust, respect, affection, listening to him whole heartedly, and putting him “first” (after God). This journey has definitely opened my eyes to my areas of weakness that would ultimately fulfill my husband's desires in a wife.

I’m reminded that “it wasn’t when I was behaving like an angel that God chose to pour out His love on me. It wasn’t because I was so deserving that He offered me His grace. God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8). He is my model. He’s the One my love is designed to imitate. Though I am not always deserving of it, He gives it anyway. He paid the price.”

With that said, I continue to dare to think in terms of overwhelming my husband with love—to surprise him by exceeding all of his expectations with my kindness despite his angry words and actions.

I was actually pleasantly surprised/speechless by an email I received out of the blue from him—

I really wish things were different. This is the worst thing I have ever gone through. I'm in so much pain because I know things will never be the same. I do love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine. I don't know why things got to this point. I wish I was dead. My heart aches. You were supposed to be the one I was going to grow old with. Now I know that will never happen and I'm scared.

That is the “nicest” thing he has said to me in months. I did not see that coming especially after seeing him Sunday with zero change to his actions/words. I have yet to respond. Still need to pray about what to say, but I do feel He wants me to reply.

Day 38: Barriers to Dreams

HKOakland — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 07:46:19 GMT

I could not really think of what materialistic things he would want except for like a Mercedes which I will not be able to get for him. I did purchase his favorite food for dinner and dessert. Dinner didn't quite turn out how I expected but he did love his food which made me happy.

SO I thought about it deeper what would really make him happy that I could do. He has asked for me to be nicer. So I know I need to make a huge effort to be nice. I know he would love it if I would clean and organize some of the mess I have laying around. Most of the stuff I think about is how I have contributed to the problems in this marriage. I need to put our marriage and him first, I need to speak to him respectfully, I need to love him unconditionally. I know he feels I have treated my friends better than him. I need to treat him like he's the most important person in the world. He has stated that we do not nurture each other. Which is sadly true. I want to support him, encourage him and nurture him.

I will pray about this and ask for GOD's guidance and strength to do some of these things which I know would make a world of difference to him.

Round 3 - Day 118

Melissa — Mon, 02 May 2011 14:41:22 GMT

During the second round I decided that I was going to start an "out west hunding fund" for my husband. I filled the jar with the money that I received for cheerleading. I have not added to it since money has been really tight. For this round, I decided that I am no longer going to spend my change and all my extra change at the end of the week is going to go into the jar.

Round 2 - Dare 38

Melissa — Wed, 23 Mar 2011 16:06:44 GMT

For todays dare I decided to give my husband $450 toward a trip out west to hunt. He has always wanted to go out west to hunt and since I received my supplemental check (cheerleading) I decided to give him all that I could after I payed my tithe and some others things. On the jar it says, "(husband name) hunting out west savings." I left it on the dining room table for him to see. When he got in from mowing the lawn he saw it. He said that he couldn't accept it and that he could save his own money for it. I said that I'm his wife and one of my responsibilities is to try and help him fulfill every one of his dreams. He took the money out and tried to give it back to me. I said that I'm choosing to do this and whether he wants me to do this for him or not, I want to do it for him. I told him that I would like to keep the jar in my room so I can add money to it and if he ever wanted to add money to it he could. I told him that I had researched some places that do guided hunts so I know how much it costs. Once I have enough money saved up we can go online and book it for him. He said that it is your money and I should spend it on myself and I said, yep this is my money and this is what I want to do with it.

He never said thanks or anything, but I didn't expect him to. I chose to do this just because I want to.

Rd 2 Day 38

chadloveslisa — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 15:47:41 GMT

My wife has two dreams and I've told her many times I will support her in every way possible to make those dreams come true. I'm trusting in God to show me the way, His way. Reading my bible last night, I was reminded “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Amen, brother, amen

Day 38-My hubby's dreams

cwest — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 02:58:32 GMT

Back in December I told my husband that I want to help him achieve his dreams and goals. I really do. He is a brilliant man and has beautiful dreams. He always wants to learn. He constantly is getting opportunities to learn something new, which translates into him working more. He told him he doesn't do it for the money. Some extra work he takes on directly benefits his career goals and others are just for fun or helping other people out. One of my biggest complaints before was that he did not spend enough time with me and would always be taking these extra opportunities on. I see now how my thoughts were all about me. I was not getting enough time with him. What I failed to see was my husband's strong desire to learn new things and how it is such an important part of who he is. The way I can fulfill his dreams are supporting him when these opportunities come up and be willing to sacrifice spending time with him so he can go do these "jobs". Some jobs he has taken on, I can hang out so we can still be "together". I enjoy watching him work. One activity he has taken on was helping a family friend farm. I have thought about getting my license to drive the trucks to the grain elevator. So that we can still be working together. I would like to talk to my husband about this. If he does come back, which I think he will, my intention and desire is to get that license.

Another "dream" my husband has is to have a positive influence in the theater world. I believe he can do this by himself, but I think together we could make a better impact. The theater world is very broken like the rest of the world and it needs stable marriages to be good examples. My husband deals with a lot of kids who come from broken homes. He is a good counselor to them. I could help him fulfill this dream by supporting him. If a student calls and needs to talk, I can let him deal with it and not demand his time at that moment. Together as a couple we could invite students over or spend time with them outside of school. He does this already without me. I have found it hard in the past to hang out with theater people because it was hard to identify with them and I was often left out of conversations because it was all about theater which I didn't understand. I also had a selfish mindset. My husband didn't really pay much attention to me when we would hang out with theater people, so I would get upset. I should have been concentrating on him and his interactions with his students and friends; really investing in the people, getting to know them. If they don't want to ask questions about me that if fine. But I can fulfill my husband's dreams by just being with him and supporting him.

I also think my husband wants me to completely trust him. I can see how some questions I ask or my actions of making certain decisions have come across as not trusting him. He wants to be the leader of our family, but I have gotten in the way; I have a strong desire to lead. I have learned that it isn't bad to step up and be the leader in certain situations, but if you are always being the leader, you are not giving anyone else the opportunity to step up. I think that is what I was doing. I wanted my husband to lead, but I did not give him the chance. His dream is to lead me and for me to trust his leadership. I will admit, there are some things he does that I do not think are in our best interest. Should I just be quite about them and trust God or should I be honest with him and tell him? I have done this in the past and I fear that it comes across as not trusting him. Is there a way to approach that without coming across as saying "i don't trust you" or "i think your wrong"? That is not my intention.

I have read about husbands who make a risky decision and their wives supporting them even if they think it is too risky; and when it fails, the wives still support them. That is the kind of trust I want to possess.

dare 38

forever512 — Fri, 04 Feb 2011 01:39:33 GMT

Aside from happiness, I can't think of many things my husband desires. Except for more flexibility in our checking account! We have been struggling financially for a while now & I've been staying at home with the kids while he works. Though I don't regret our choices, I can see how having all the financial troubles on his shoulders could make him feel unsatisfied or unhappy. For a while I have been studying to take my recertification exam. I used to teach elementary school before my children were born but my certification expired before I was able to renew it :P So today I took the practice test & passed (yay!) and after I am done on this site I will be reserving my spot for the recertification exam in 2 weeks- EEK! I need to do this. Yes, it will be a big weight off his shoulders to have another income, but it will be good for me too. The process is long- exam, apply for recertification, apply for jobs, hopefully find a position, start working in August- but I have put the wheels in motion & I feel great :)

dare 38/round 2

forever512 — Sun, 26 Dec 2010 02:22:58 GMT

Merry Christmas :)

I used to know my husbands needs & wants... but lately the only thing I can think of is happiness. Since I can't give that to him, even though I'd sacrafice everything for it, all I could do was pray. I prayed that he finds his happiness, though he thinks he knows what that is (leaving and doing who knows what...) I am thinking he won't know true happiness until he accepts the Lord back into his life & until he begins to trust God with everything.

It was overall a great day for my family. I have a lot to be thankful for & I don't need anything more. I caught myself becoming saddened by my husbands behavior toward me today a few times... I tried to get away to privacy momentarily to pray and ask for strength & God always helped. I also reminded my kids today why we celebrate Christmas & then we all went to the manger scene set up at our house & said happy birthday to Jesus. It was so fulfilling to see/hear.

I pray my husband finds the happiness he is seeking. I pray the Lord help him in every way to find it.

dare 38

forever512 — Tue, 16 Nov 2010 02:58:21 GMT

I feel like I might have kind of failed at this dare...but I also feel like something important happened.

I prayed and prayed to try to think what it is my husband really desires, and all i could think of was happiness. The problem with that is that I am not sure how he defines happiness. We've talked about it before, but it always comes down to he's just not happy here with me & he's not exactly sure what would make him happy but he's sure it's not me. So all i could think of is that only God can bring him the happiness he desires. I prayed for that. But I also wanted to DO something for him, and I might have strayed off course here. He is very into his work out routines and he's been wanting a good heart beat monitor but hasn't purchased one becasue of the price. So I found one I thought he would like and I bought it for him. In past dares, I have been leaving things for him or writing things in notes verses talking to him so I resolved to not do that this time.

That's the "important" part, i think. I waited till the day had calmed down, the kids were sleeping I was back from my run & I sat down and chatted a bit with him about his work outs. I knew the gift would be accepted with a bit of hesitation & maybe even rejection, but I prayed to God before I spoke with my husband and I simply told him I was really proud of his dedication & I handed him the gift. He hesitated to take it & when he saw what it was he immediately said that we cant afford something like that. I didn't tell him, but I am planning on stopping my hair coloring treatments to save money & that would cover the cost of the gift. However, he also said he appreciated it. I told him I felt that he has been dedicated & that I was proud and that I thought this might keep him motivated. I also said that he deserves it.

I think I had another "realization" today. I have been griping about communication to him for so long...but i don't think it was an issue with him. I think I stopped communicating with him. I put up walls of anger and resentment and I wouldn't talk to him about things that mattered. And now I feel the roles have reversed...he's put up his walls again...he doesn't trust me. I would always write things in notes becasue I was so nervous to talk to him, I didn't pray on it prior to talking to him. It was all about me being in control. If I wrote him a letter, he couldn't argue about it. The past few dares I prayed on before doing them, and God gave me the strength and courage to talk to my husband without the butterflies & without worrying about what might happen. I guess I just trusted Him to lead me & guide me.

Day Thirtyeight

Polly — Sun, 31 Oct 2010 19:03:36 GMT

Fulfilling dreams has been what my goal was the past eight years. I strived to make my hunny's dreams come true to the detriment of my own. I lost myself in there trying to keep him happy and amused. Just a couple days ago he was saying something about how things aren't going well, and I told him he needed God in his life and asked him to go to sunday service with me, he flat out refused. He thinks that he wouldn't be accepted, and also he has some off the wall ideas about religion in general. I have not been a huge follower myself, and I knew how he felt about religion and thought it would be ok, he had so many other positive points to dwell on. Now I am seeing that I was mistaken. When I went to church today, I was welcomed by the whole congregation. It was a warm and heartfelt welcome too. And then psalm 46 was read, and I knew that I was here for a reason. I needed to hear the words.

I was able to talk with him when he got home later, told him about going to church. He tried to tease me about it but I didn't let it bother me. He got angry and left. I can show him how I am, how I feel, but I can't make him believe; that's in God's hands.

Day 38 Round III - 9/15/10

Seeker108 — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 02:07:49 GMT

I committed what I could think of to prayer, but it was hard. I was feeling off today. I determined later in the day it was probably because I was getting sick. So that explains a lot.

Tonight was technically her evening with the kids, but because they are coming right back over in the morning because they don't have school I offered to let them stay at my place. She accepted but invited us over for dinner. We went over for dinner and had a pleasant meal. I brought dessert and cleaned up afterwards. She and I shared an ice cream cone for desert and watched a movie with the kids. While I was cleaning the dishes I looked up and she was watching me. She winked at me and I just smiled back. I didn't linger longer than was necessary. After the movie the kids and I collected their things and we left. I gave her a hug, kissed her on the neck and told her goodnight.

Later I text messaged her and told her thanks for dinner and to call if she needed anything. She called and asked if we were knocking on her door to which I said no, which was followed by a brief conversation and then goodnights again. She texted me back and thanked us for coming over and said it was nice to have the company. I told her no problem and to call if she needed to.

All of this should be encouraging. But I'm doing what I can not to hang my hat on anything. If anything this process has taught me many things. First off, she is slightly unpredictable so I'm leery of this new friendliness on the heels of Scott's visit. I suppose there could be a good meaning behind it, but I also expected it as we got closer because the only way things are going to go a certain way is if I agree to them. So I'm concerned she is being nice as a manipulation tool.

The other thing I have learned is that if I start doing things my way any progress which has been made will be lost. So I have committed to staying the course, leaving this in God's hands and doing only what I feel a strong leaning towards. The greatest leaning I have is to stay the course and have faith, even though I feel my anxiety and frustrations arise when I think that our final hearing is less than a week away. To date, she has not said anything about stopping or even extending the process. I have made my position clear and I have also made it clear that she is driving this train and where it goes is up to her. So I'm leaving it in God's hands and committing everything I can to prayer.

The other thing that is disconcerting is that that last couple nights when we have been over there, she has called Scott right after we left. This makes it hard for me to wonder if I could ever trust her again. I fear that paranoia which I feel inside of me, the anxiety of wondering what she is doing or who she is talking to. The insecurity which comes with having been cheated on. But again, there is no indication anything is going to change and therefore I have no alternative but to stay the course and continue to commit everything to prayer.

I'm not feeling well. I'm going to bed.

Day 78 - her dreams are as important as mine

James — Mon, 30 Aug 2010 20:57:32 GMT

Well, we can each have our own dreams in life, but if I'm able to treat her dream like I would treat mine then I will be able to try my best to honor it all the time. I must say I never ask myself this question often enough - "What is something that she would really, really love?" I need to learn to adopt a new level of love that actually wants to fulfill every dream and desire I possibly can. Boy, I can just imagine what high road it will be if/when we do get back together. It would be hardest thing in my entire life, to practice God's love given my selfish nature. But I can, if I fully trust Him and give my life to Him.

As I look reflect back at this journey so far, there were so many times when I wanted to give up. "I broke down and cried out to Him. I prayed like I'd never prayed before. And though it wasn't easy getting back up and walking on, I somehow survived." This is His way to give me the experience so I can always look back and say hey He delivered me that time, He will deliver me again. It is not because of what good I did or how I was deserving that He offered me His grace... "God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8)

2nd Time Day 38

Otty_Beaner — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 21:44:16 GMT

6-3-10

Well the only thing that my mate wants now is her own home so I have been helping her get it ready to move into. Sounds pretty weird to most people but I believe this is something God would want me to do.

I will continue to help her when ever I can. Plus I always keep in mind that my kids will be there too so I want to make sure stuff is done right and safe for my kids to live in.

Day 38: Prayer Leads to Confidence

Stan — Sat, 22 May 2010 06:45:30 GMT

Well her we are Day 38. This morning I was still kind of confused with some of my wifes actions lately and my lack of not completely turning everything over to the Lord. When I left for work I always tell my wife i love her and kiss her on the check or forehead. Every once in a while she with kiss me on the lips, and that just turns me into mush. I arrived early at work today, but first things first, I prayed as I do every morning during my commute, Upon arriving I studied my bible and read my Love Dare book. Today was a pretty busy day for me, I had to complete 6 inspection reports and either approve or reject several other reports submitted by junior inspectors.

I left work around 3:45 and met my wife, my mother-in-law and several of my wifes uncles and cousins at a local Mexican restaurant. It felt good to be around the family. I don't know if they know exactly what’s going on between us, but they have never been nothing more than loving to me. Later, we came home and my wife and mother-in-law went shopping. She is down for my daughter's prom which is tomorrow night, and then graduation during Memorial Day weekend. Anyway when they returned I had the front of the house swept and mopped so we met some friends for dinner. When we returned from dinner my wife started trying on some new clothes. She was so proud of herself, she went from a size 12 to an 8. I was very proud of her and told her she looked great. She even modled her new two piece bathing suit for me. At first I didn't say anything, but then I told how good she looked in her bathing suit. She said, I don't count, I would say that if she weighed 500 lbs. She is probably right, but I meant it, she looked really good. After another wonderful night together, I again reassured her how beautiful she looked in her new bathing suit and she said thank you. She had bought it for her trip she is taking to Florida with best friend at the beginning of next month. I hade made a comment earlier. In gest I had asked if they were going on a Thelma and Louise trip. I then said i hope not because the ending was not very promising. Anyway I was just joking around with her and she got kind of defensive. I told her nothing was meant by it, it was just a joke. Hopefully that’s all she took it for.

Now for the good part. We were lying in bed and she rolled over in our bed facing away from me and that’s when I asked her to give me her hand because I wanted to pray before we went to sleep. She kind of shrugged it off, and pulled her hand away. So i did the next best thing, I placed my hand on her shoulder and began praying out loud for her happiness, her

Fibromyalgia, our marriage, my Grandfather, etc. She didn’t say a word she just laid there with her back to me. I was so excited that I was able to pray aloud for my wife. Praying gave me strength and courage I’ve been needing, to pray aloud with my wife.

Day 38

Otty_Beaner — Fri, 23 Apr 2010 11:01:07 GMT

4-22-10

Her dream has always been to take the kids to Disney World and I finally have the money for it but she doesn't want to go with me. She wants her own house now so that is pretty much what she if focused on. Her parents are helping her out so it should be easy for her to get out. I wish this Love Dare was ending differently but it's not.

This has been a real growth experience for me and I will continue to Serve God and wait for his next chapter in my life patiently.