Well it is funny how my life is going. I prayed before bedtime last night differently than befor. This morning I read the dare and thought how wonderful God is & I am never amazed at his glory. This path is a hard one to follow but I am doing great. I have me down moments but I am finding my way back so much faster than before.
I do not know how my husband is for he has not talked to him in over a week now but I have faith that he is working on the things he needs to whatever they may be. I explained to a friend how gratful I am that my life is where it is at. I told her that I feel like my husband & I are in the center of a circle with a fence between us, a see thru fence. Surrounded by friends that are keeing me accountable for my actions & helping me keep on God's path for me. One day I hope to be able to go thru the gate to my husbands yard & visit again.
I feel like giving up sometimes on my marriage, mostly because I loose faith that we can fix this place we are in, but with the help of God, friends, faith, trust & patients I see that I do have faith, it is patients that I need more of. So I am praying for the strength to hang in there. I did receive a renewed sence of patients this morning. I love my husband, I am in no hurry & I know God has the perfect timing for my future & my husabands. I will be here for him when the day comes that he finds his way back to Jesus love.
I am so grateful for this journey. My good friend at church says the changes in me are so very obvious, she says I am a different person. I do not want to settle, I want to keep pushing on & growing. I have deceided to redo the dare so that the changes will be a permenent change in my life, prectice makes perfect right. While I know I can never be perfect, I know that this is the path I want to be on, 37 days ago I started this journey for my marriage, today I am walking it for God, for myself & my marriage. I am a different person from when I started I I like the me Linda, I know God does to but he isnt done with me yet.
I pray that my husband will find God's grace, love & support. I love him, I miss him. I hope he finds his way back home to Jesus on his own time....I know he will...someday................God bless
Linda you are doing awesome. There are still tough times ahead. But remember God will never give you more than you can handle.
Thank you so much for all your encouraging words. I can only imagine what the tough times ahead can be, but I'm ready for them.
Linda, I am so proud of you. You are doing great, and this has not been easy.