is still God’s Word
“Commit to reading the Bible every day.
Find a devotional book or other resource that will give you some
guidance. If your spouse is open to it, see if they will commit to daily Bible
reading with you. Begin submitting each area of your life to its guidance
and start building on the rock.”
My morning does not
begin without my daily devotions and Bible reading. It was one of the stepping
stones that was started the beginning of this year that I am so grateful for—an
eternal living instruction manual for life. “It lives because the Holy Spirit
still resonates within its words. It lives because its Author is still alive.
And it lives because it becomes part of who you are, how you think, and what
you do.” Obviously my husband is not open to reading it with me, but still not
giving up on it—his ‘one day’ is coming!
A couple other
resources that have given valuable guidance that I have recently read are “Healing
your Marriage when Trust is Broken” by Cindy Beall and “Heaven is for Real” by
Todd Burpo. I HIGHLY recommend “Healing your Marriage when Trust is Broken” for
those dealing with broken trust within your marriage whether it be through an
affair or even an addiction. It is the raw honest story of a pastor’s wife who
shares intimate knowledge of pain and of God’s power to resurrect something new
out of the debris of betrayal (husband had multiple affairs, impregnated one of
the women and had an addiction to pornography). Cindy’s compassion and grasp of
God’s Word truly instilled hope in me for the restoration of trust in my own
marriage. It affirmed my trust in Christ with my own broken heart and to follow
His lead, hope, and redemption.
I mentioned “Heaven
is for Real” a few entries ago. It gets me psyched for my eternal life in
Heaven. This story is heartwarming, simple, and a surprising Biblical glimpse into a
little four year old boy's journey into Heaven. Colton Burpo was four years old
when he found himself at death's door. His family didn't realize he had made
his amazing journey until small, but shocking revelations that amazed and
bewildered his parents began to leak out. Colton didn't just have one sit down conversation—he
let his journey be known one startling revelation at a time.
After devotions and my work out, I went to my
counseling appointment. I spent a good part of the session going over the last
two weeks’ rollercoaster ride. Afterwards, my counselor shed his own wisdom on
everything and gave me a challenge. He challenged me to truly focus on the
moment. Do not worry about tomorrow or even a week from now. Christ works
within the moment as has been very evident throughout my journey. I so needed
to hear that especially on this new road to reconciliation with my husband. I
am definitely taking him up on that challenge. I know I can do it.
The rest of the day was spent with my husband.
We went and checked out a third option for carpet, enjoyed a nice lunch at
Bahama Breeze, played at the park with our dog, watched a new favorite tv show
of ours, and ended the evening with getting some ice cream. I had such a great
time. No heavy conversations, just enjoying each other’s presence. I kept
reminding myself of my counselor’s challenge—live in the moment. That I did and
thank God for such a great day!
I think the counselors challenge is a great one. But please be careful. Do not mistake that for following your heart and allowing your heart to live for the moment. You still must lead your heart through each moment.
Great point Sean and I actually had a moment yesterday where I did. He had asked if we mind that we go back to his place rather than our house. Right away I said that is fine since he is always coming over, but then I felt God right away telling me no. I felt bad changing my answer, but I did and just told him I would prefer we go back to our house. Thankfully, he was okay with that.
That is good that you are open to change. Feeling bad and doing it anyway can always have consequences.