"Go eat your bread with joy and drink your wine with a merry heart, because it is now that God favors your works." (Ecclesiastes 9: 7)
"When the fool walks through the street, in his lack of understnading he calls everything foolish" (Ecclesiastes 10:3)
I was continuing reading where I left off in Ecclesiastes & these two verses really popped out to me. It's just like the dare preface explained, the Bible is a living book...it's amazing how everything you read, no matter what chapter, new/old testament, etc, it can always be applied to you and your situation & your worries in one way or another. It's amazing how God can comfort you with such amazing words.
The first verse spoke to me to remind me to keep my focus on Christ and to continue to do things favorable to God. I keep reminding myself that all I do should be a service to the Lord... including the way I treat my husband. It can be hard sometimes with how much things have gotten "worse", but I love him still... even though he is completely ignoring me.
The second quote stood out for me because I felt like it kind of described my husband. He is quick to blame everyone & everything for his own selfishness. And I don't want to sound like I am angry about it or vengeful or even conceited. However, noticing how his lack of understanding and wisdom lead to his selfishness, allows me to pray harder for him and pray to God for guidance of my actions as well.
My kids are so excited for Christmas... our festivities begin tomorrow with a big traditional gathering at my families house. I have tried to be consistant with them when it comes to knowing the true meaning of Christmas, so today when they were exclaiming how excited they were to get presents from santa, I asked... Whose birthday are we also going to celebrate on Christmas?? My 3 year old yells out, JESUS! It made me so proud! Especially since I have been trying harder to bring Christ into our everyday lives. Last Sunday at church my 3 year old looked at the crucifix and said to me, "Mommy, Jesus is naked! Why is he wearing His undies?". It took every bit of me not to burst out in giggles, but at the same time I was so proud of my son for noticing, observing and asking. That's how the learning process begins :)
I feel at peace. I feel happy. I feel comforted. I am blessed with so much & I thank the Lord daily for all His wonderful gifts to me!
On a side note, since tomorrow will be busy for me... I would like to extend Christmas blessings to everyone! I pray that the Lord brings everyone peace, comfort & happiness. Merry Christmas :)
Merry Christmas to you and your family.
One of the most important things in this journey is not only to see the things in our spouse. But in us as well. Your journey has brought you to a point that now you know what selfishness truly is. Dont just look at his, also look back at to what yours was.
I say was, because now it is easy for you to point out. But before you started this journey, how bad was yours truly?
Amazing isnt it!
So very true Sean! As I look back at our Christmas last year and the year that followed it, I cant believe some of the things I did, said or thought! Now don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere near perfect...but my eyes have been opened & I am able to catch myself without making excuses for why what I was doing was ok... I realize now that if you have to cover up mistakes with tons of "logic", you are probably wrong... Now I can admit it, I can ask for forgiveness & I learn from it.
I didnt mean to sound like I was accusing my husband or only seeing the error in his ways, but before that verse would have been without meaning to me... And though I noticed how it applies to my husband now, it definately applies to me several months ago!
You didn't, I just wanted to point out that your eyes are do wide open in understanding now, that you not only should see your past, but his selfishness will show like a sore thumb.