Love meets sexual needs day 32

So in the past this was a problem between us. But i have had some sexual trauma in the past that has made me steer away from meeting all his sexual needs. I started changing before he left. Now its like i don't know. I wanted to do this dare until i figured out he was talking to someone else and lying about it. Made me wonder if he was doing something more. Either way i didn't see him today. so this didn't happen. Been praying a lot about this and i'm not goint to let him keeping this from me ruin my fight. i'm moving forward until God tells me to stop. And i don't feel this is it. Looking forward for tomorrows dare.

But your not married. So this is one that you should understand if Christ does not ope the door to.

I understand we are not married, but i am committed to him.  And marriage is just that a commitment.  So yes maybe God didn't open the door because it wasn't meant to happen.  That's fine.  Either way i don't feel it would have happened.  

Amen...