Day 31—Love and Marriage
“Is there a "leaving" issue you
haven't been brave enough to conquer yet? Confess it to your spouse
today, and resolve to make it right. The oneness of your marriage is
dependent upon it. Follow this with a commitment to your spouse and to
God to make your marriage the top priority over every other human relationship.”
is one issue I have not completely conquered yet, but as Christ is molding me
through this journey, I see him slowly strengthening my weakness in this area.
My husband has expressed among all my other faults, the fact that we always
spend time with my family and never his. I cannot deny this. He is absolutely
right. When we were dating I would want to always be spending time at my house.
On holidays, we would spend very little time at his parents, so we could get to
mine. I am very tradition oriented, so I’ve had a lot of difficulty facing a
change in that.
I can see
God using that struggle of mine in the last month. When my husband made the
decision to stay elsewhere for a little while, I stayed at my parents. I didn’t
think I could handle it emotionally at home. When I came back home on my “turning
point” day [day 6], I have not left since. My husband asked me repeatedly over
the last three weeks to leave. He wanted me to move out—that I owed him that. I
would not budge. I said I was not going anywhere—I was not going to run. Due to my stance and
him not “standing the sight of me” he stayed at the ‘other woman’s’ house,
which eventually turned into moving out on his own. I do not regret for one
second my choice of not leaving. It
was and continues to be by the strength
of Christ that I am able to stay at home where all the memories are, where I
would wake up in the middle of the night alone in a bed knowing where he was
spending his night, where it is now missing half of our stuff, where I am now
sleeping on a couch.
made the BIGGEST decision of my life—to TRULY put God first. Yes, it has made
my husband run and turn into someone I do not recognize anymore. It has caused
strife with some of my personal relationships. I do not take it personal
because I KNOW I am listening to what God wants me to do and without a doubt
following Him! He provides the peace I need when my soul is in anguish.
I remember in my situation when I would not leave and she ended up leaving. What a hard time that was. But it was what was best in my walk with Christ. It allowed me the time and margin in my life that brought me closer to Christ. In turn brought me closer to my daughter and son, and all the while her life spun out of control. However, when Gods molding needed to come out and I needed to be that testimony, I was... And He prepared me for it.
I'm never good at leaving. I guess i always feel people leave me. But i vowed that i would not leave him. And now i vow never to leave Christ. I feel so different and peaceful. I can only hope that Angel one day finds the same peace.
I am sure he will through your testimony.