I am one with God & one with my husband. Yesterday was very hard, I prayed all day & spent the evening reading my bible for guidance, As always God heard my crys & guided me to the right way. I have to admit I was feeling desperate, I tries to take control of the reins again. God let me & right before I hit the brick wall..he took them back saving me from crashing.
I realized God did answer my prayers, I have been turned down by the last 2 jobs I have applied for, both of which were very physical & with hours that would not allow me to attend Sunday service. I prayed that a better job would come to me. So why would I take it any other way than God saying these are not the jobs for you? I am a wonderful person & a loving child of the Lord. Not getting a job does not define who I am.I am still my husbands wife, faithful & learning to be the strong woman God sees me to be. I know who I am and if some people in my life do not chose to see this than it is better they are not a part of my life, God is answering another prayer. I asked that he bring strong, healthy, God fearing, good people into my life & he has done that .
I am walking the path with my Savior, he patiently waits for me when I stumble & fall. I am grateful he helps me up time & time again, hugs me & says ready to go & I can ask forgiveness, forgive myself & continue on with my journey. I am one with God & one with my husband ( no matter where on his path he is). I am accepting of what the future brings because what ever it is I know I will be there by Gods will & not my fears or desperation. I take back & kick out the feelings of doubt, replacing them with the love only God has for me. The enemy will always bring trouble, I am so happy that I can reach out to God, good friends & even myself to fight him & win.
Yesterday was a very bad day. Today is a new day & it is wonderful. I love my Lord, my husband, my life & myself. I am living in a beautiful light & my future is going to be wonderful, today is & just keeps getting better. I guess I just needed to change the light bulb yesterday & with Gods help, prayer & good friends I got the bulb changed & off we go............................
I love you Matthew, no matter what you are doing, I am still walking as one because it is what I am to do as your spouse & I chose to...........
God answers every prayer. The answer is not always "Yes". Sometimes it is No, sometimes it is Be Patient..... But everyone is answered. Just not the way we want it to be.