I can’t believe its Day 30. This morning, I had to get up early again and before I left she sat up again for a kiss, I told her I love her and she said, I know you do. Before I left the neighborhood she called and said she needed the stamps in my wallet. So I turned around and brought them to her. I left the room and told her to have a great day and I love her. She said, I love you too. It’s the things like this that gives me hope. I don't know if it is false hope, but its something. She had a bad day yesterday with her fibromyalgia. So when I came home from work she wasn’t feeling so good. She skipped her counseling session yesterday because she was feeling so bad, in fact she sent my middle daughter. I do admit I was kind of concerned about how she reacted the other night too. Anyway we took her car to the dealership so they could tint the windows and picked up the loner car. Later I dropped her off at home and went and picked up dinner for her and my son.After dropping off dinner I met some friends at the local place in town. They were having a glass of wine and just trying to unwind. There I found out that there truck was being totaled by the insurance company after they said they would fix it and the major shocker was another couple that we are good friends with, who were acting as foster parent for their niece and nephew, CPS was taking both of the kids (1 & 8) in the morning and placing them in a permanent foster home. This is the only stable setting they had ever been in and now they are placing them with strangers. It broke my heart. Well when I returned home, my wife was still in bed so I rubbed her back down with some liniment to help her relax and sleep. She wasn’t to talkative, so I just let her rest. I love taking care of her. I watched some TV before going to sleep. I again told her I loved her, I then prayed for my wife, and my friends before going to sleep. As for my dare. I prayed that the Lord would change her resentment to forgiveness and open her heart and eyes to the love I have for her. I know the only way she will see that I have changed is to continually show her.
Stan, why would you think false hope? If I recall, that is the first time she told you since this started. I have read all your posts and I do not recall seeing that before. Now here is the hard part. If you see that as a door and jump in, that may be putting yourself back a few steps. Just keep your focus above. And continue as you have. But I am happy to see there are some changes. As for the friends. Not a good situation. I actually have my niece and nephew because of something that CYS is involved in.