Read the appendix on leading the heart. Very important to some of the feelings you are having right now. And seek Christ in each dare, trust Him to do each dares as they are intended and do not manipulate them because of what ythink the response will be. Understand you are on a journey with Christ.
I'm going through almost the same thing , it's really hard I feel your pain. The hardest part I've come to realize is releasing the burden you carry to god . Read Philippians 4:6 . I will pray so that god can work his will in your marriage , I ask that you please do the same for me . My name is Carla .
Carla, we also have a section called journals. There is much more interaction there if you'd like.