I feel like im in a tug o' war game sometimes. I pray & know the right thing to do but I hear the "but's" and the "maybe's" in the back of my mind trying to convince me I'm wrong. Todays dare was no different. I decided the tangible way to show my husband I love him was to bring him a rose. We have a thing about roses... And I tied a note on it that said 'i love you'. I left it for him at his front door. In the back of my mind I kept hearing, 'it's going to make him mad', 'leave him alone & maybe he'll miss you more', 'he'll think you're desperate becasue you are doing these things'. But I knew that it was what God wanted and that was more important to me than anything else.
Overall I feel proud of fighting for the right thing. I have thoughts cross my mind that maybe I should try to make my husband jealous... but I remove them right away becasue I know that is not what God would want me to do... that's me retaking the control. I feel like I am constantly struggling with these thoughts & I just want them to stop for good! I know temptation will never stop, so I take these as lessons in growing in faith.
I thank God daily for the gift of my wonderful husband. I thank Him for the opportunity to love him and be with him. I thank Him for bringing us together and blessing us with so much. I have hope my husband might still have a change of heart... but that's not for me to control, so I wait for God to lead me.
I commented on the other one.