Right now the greatest need in my husband's life is spiritual - a need that can only be met by God. However, I think that the way that I act and the decisions that I make during this time could be used by God to impact my spouse. This dare has been hard for me. Right now my husband does not live with me and doesn't want much to do with me. When thinking of a physical need that I could meet, I didn't have much thought. After prayer and seeking the Lord's guidance I think that what I need to sacrifice for my spouse is my "comforts." What I mean by that is that I often attempt to contact my spouse to make myself feel better -- negative interaction sometimes seems better than no interaction at all. This should not be the case. I need to trust my husband to the Lord and allow the Lord to be what comforts me and fills me up. I will do this by continuing to complete the dares and looking for opportunities that the Lord gives me to demonstrate how He is working in my life to my spouse. Other than these opportunities, I feel like I need to give my husband time and space. It is very hard to let go of someone that you love so much while at the same time making an effort to show that someone just how much you truly love and appreciate them.
It is really not that hard. Realize that you are going to love Christ first so that you can love your husband better.
And those interactions when you express negativity just to be in communication does more damage than you can imagine. In fact, it makes it so much harder to be a testimony of Christ even in the good times in his eyes...
I don't mean that I express myself in a negative manner to him - rather that my attempt to communicate is met with a negative reaction from him. I was meaning that sometimes I long to hear from him so much that I would rather hear the mean things he has to say rather than not hear from him at all. Although I am focusing on Christ and growing in my relationship with him like never before - it is hard to not have any contact with my husband! And I think that it is ok to feel that way. I know that I must focus my energy on loving the Lord and I am doing that.
Oh, sorry about that. But remember these dares are things that will teach you to trust Christ no matter what. Even if you know that your dare will be met with Negativity, trust Christ and do it. You must give up control to Christ.