For today's dare I asked my husband to forgive me for things that I have done that I didn't even recognize that I was doing until I started this journey. It was easy the first round to think of things to ask forgiveness for. I knew when I had wronged my husband and the things that I had done in the past that hurt his feelings. This time around I had to truly think about my selfish motives. I asked my husband to forgive me for being selfish. I explained to him that in the past I had put myself and others before him. I also ask him to forgive me for always saying I wasn't happy. I would blame him for not making happy. Through this journey I realized that it is not my husband that makes me truly happy, I also thought that he needed to do stuff to make me happy. In reality, my happiness comes from the Lord. I am choosing to be happy. Before, I chose to not be happy. You shouldn't count on other people to make you happy, that is just putting unrealistic expectations them because they are not always going to make you happy. He said that he forgives me, just like he did the first time. My husband doesn't hold grudges. He never has. It is one attribute that I truly love about my husband.
Things are starting to get harder. We are moving out of our house this week. I am moving into a rental that we own, and I have no idea what my husbands plan is. I should find out soon because we need to be out by tomorrow. I am doing well though. I am excited about all the renovations that I want to make to the house. This whole week I have been excited about the move, packing, getting things together has not been difficult. I'm content, trusting in the Lord. It is a weird thought though, my husband and I not living in the same house and there hasn't even been one discussion about the dissolution for almost a month. I will continue with my journey and trust in God. I know I can't go wrong and that He is working on me and my husband every day. Though the days seem like they should be getting tougher, God has truly taken me somewhere I have never been before. I feel like I should be a wreck since my husband and I will no longer be living together after tomorrow, but I'm not. I'm just content. THANK GOD!!!
When you put God first, before anything including your husband. Your trust in Him is so comforting. Knowing that all your NEEDS will be met, and all the other things will be added.
Your testimony is coming through to your spouse, dont think it isnt. God is working and His plan is perfect...