5-19-10
I have already dealt with things the last time I done the dare. God has pretty much helped me greatly with this area in my life. I just hope now I don't turn going to the gym into a obsession cause it is all I do now when the kids are not around. Easy way for me to let some anger out...lol
I made my second amend tonight to my wife's best friend which I thought was why she left me in the first place. She has not had good dealings with men so she has been labeled a man hater and I thought she was rubbing off on my wife. My wife said she has never told her to leave me and I told her that it didn't matter if she did I had no right talking bad about her for it to other people. I told her I am trying to make my self right with God and in order to do it I have to make myself right with people I think I have harmed. We talked for almost 2 hours and it was a great relief when she gave me a hug and said she accepted my apology.
I hope my wife doesn't think I am trying to get to her through her friends cause I am not. We talked nothing about her helping me and my wife get back together. She just shared her experiences with past relationship and so did I. Turned out to be a very productive evening.
God is finally giving me peace and thanked him dearly for it last night and this morning in prayer.
What is all the anger you are venting at the gym? Maybe this is a stumbling block for you. Pray about those angers and leave them to Christ to deal with.
Maybe there are just frustrations with how life is going right now...I don't really know. I do feel better after I have slung some weight around though. I will pray and have God work with me on this issue. Thanks for pointing it out...
As Christians we need not to live with that. We have the ability to just leave it all at his feet to deal with. It is the greatest thing.