I dont have any addictions that I can think of but I guess that doesn't mean there isn't some. My day today started out nice, my wife was in a good mood and we joked about things and spent some time together. Suddenly, her mood changed. I tried everything to calm her but was unable too. I let her win one argument and she would turn to another. When she started calling names I went to leave she said ill make her mad so I sat down and told her I would love to talk. She continued with extremely hateful comments so I chose to leave the house. She later called and we talked threw her anger and she told me over and over that she will get child support and I need to plan for it. She also stated over and over that she does not love me and she wants nothing to do with me. I hurt still and I am praying. She also wants to plan for my visitation rights but I told her that I will not get into that yet as our child will not be born for another six months. I did say it calmly and with love but it just makes her mad.
It makes her mad because she is not in complete control. She sees your growth and does not know how to deal with it.
You need to keep focused on your journey and growth with Christ, soon she will break from the path she is on, all because of your testimony.
The fact she is so positive our marriage is over hurts. I just don't understand how she doesn't get if she put half the energy into working on the marriage vs working to divorce how great it could be. She asked me this morning if I wanted to share a moving truck, I said that's fine but it really hurt.
It hurts because you are still growing in your journey and have not been able to get to the level of trust with Christ.
Something is holding you back. You need to work that out with Christ.
Remember, we have a jealous God. And nothing should be before Him in your life.
Prayer is so important, daily. And you are still growing daily allowing Christ to mold you. And God is never late....
I pray many times through out the day, not sure what's holding me back. I do have q question, if jealousy is wrong to have in our lives, why is it said that the lord is a jealous god?
There is a legitimate jealousy and one that is not. And since you asked this question, I am going to answer what possibly might be holding you back. Go back and read day 8. This explains about jealousy. And what might be holding you back is that when you read these dares you are set on the parts of what effects your relationship, and not what Christ is trying to teach you about your journey.
Remember these dares, they are allow Christ to mold you to be more in His image. Your wife is a tool during this journey. There is more to get out of this than just what you need to do with her, but how to apply this to your journey and your life period.