*sigh* I have not yet done this dare exactly as said. I did however tell my husband that I love him no matter what earlier this week when we had our special dinner. I feel like I know my husband well enough to know that repeating myself over and over would annoy him, so I am kinda going to let this one go until the opportunity presents itself again. If I had not just told him these words earlier, I would totally go forward with the dare. And, if the oportunity presents itself tonight, then I might still say it. But he knows that I love him, and unconditionally, and nothing but God can ever change that.
It's been a strange couple days for me. Peaceful & fun :) Even with my husband around! He went out last night, but didn't leave till 7 PM & was home by 12:30. This is odd to me becasue normally his "time with the guys" would last from 2-3 in the afternoon on Friday night & into Saturday or even Saturday night. Lately, he has been coming home after going out instead of sleeping over his buddys house, but it would be until about 4AM. SO when he came home last night at 12:30, I was not only still awake- but completely surprised to see him! He has spent all day at the house, though hardly ever doing much with the kids or myself- he is still very into himself, but I leave that all to God. I find myself trying to assess the situation, he's being nicer, yes...but he's still not wearing his wedding band, boo. So when I start doing it, I try to take a minute and tell God to take this from me & that I trust Him. it helps a lot!
My day was exhausting! After going to bed at 2AM (I was getting in the Halloween spirit watching movies), one of my kids was up every 2 hours until I was up for good by 8:00. we played today, we went to the park, we watched Halloween movies... it was great, but so taxing on my patience after a while! My sons hate to nap though they need to & therefore it means my daughter ususally ends up with a shorter nap- so by 5:00 they are all cranky! Anyway...it was difficult for me to keep my patience, but again praying to God helped me through it. I am completely wiped out right now... I found myself thinking for a few moments today, when is he going to chip in and help a bit....but again, I just took it up with the Lord. It works every time.
Oh, I almost forgot...for the first time in a very LONG time, my husband knelt down and said bedtime prayers with our sons and I. I was soooo happy that he was even attempting to look like he was praying, much less acctually praying! What a great (almost) ending to a loooong (and will be a bit longer) day!
Last night, my husband said he should start sleeping on the couch because sleeping next to me he can't fight his "urges". I don't know what to think of that, though I know there's not much to think of- just hand it back to Christ.
Forever,
You took control back from Christ. You did it your way..... By not doing the dare, because you know your husband.... What, better than Christ?
You must realize that this is a journey between you and Christ. And by realizing that, you must humble yourself to do the dares.... That is you showing you trust Him. That you are willing for His will in your life by allowing His ways to mold you in His image. Yes, there will be times that dares cannot be done, but when they can be, we must take the leap for Christs sake.
You are so right! That's probably why I struggled with my decision to do or not do it.