Well… my birthday was Friday and she did the
unexpected. She wished me a happy
birthday and used my full first name ( an inside thing that meant a lot to me
always) She texts me “Happy Birthday
Jonathan J” I responded with a simple “Thank You!” She
said “have a good day old manJ”
… Ok, I will young lady ;-)…. I told her
that this made my day like she wouldn’t believe. She simply said J Of Course!.... then I went to go and pick up my kids and she
set them up with a pack of cupcakes, a card, and three picture frames from her
so I can have pics of the kids in my apartment.
I bawled like a baby after I left… then last night I find out that she
was back on facebook but using her maiden name… oy vey! We are not even
divorced yet!.... I wish I knew what was
going through her head…..
22. I need to let go and let God. I think she is not going to like it and it is
going to make her mad. But I am going to
pull her away from the kids just long enough to tell her how I love her and
choose to love her. Even if she doesn’t love
me back. I need to be ready for her to
be angry and not let her spark my temper.
I am going to put on the armor of God before I go. We will see.
God! My Messiah! May this
marriage be restored for the glory of Your Kingdom!
Well… I told her and she looked at me and asked “why do you feel like you need to tell me that?” I told her that I just do… then she asked “ does it make you feel better?” to that I said we will see. I felt good and strengthened after telling her I loved her. Guess that’s what happens when you walk in His love. I learned that regardless of how you feel, when you show love anyway you are given the feeling of love.
When you do not manipulate Gods plan for your own desire the blessing of comfort is always the outcome.