What a great day! I am continuing to let go of my husband, and when my thoughts wander to him, I just start praying. I cried a lot this morning, just because I knew it was time to let go, but every time I cried, I felt comforted my the Lord. I am so grateful He is so awesome! My day was pretty much normal stuff with housekeeping & kids... but this afternoon I decided to "decorate" pine cone with my kids.... we got glue & glitter and glittered up the pine cones... I thought they would make a festive decoration anywhere in the house. ANyway...my youngest son took an ENTIRE bottle of my brand new & a little pricey glitter and litterally dumped the whole bottle on the smallest pine cone!!! I think he even forgot to add glue first!!! So in this situation, I would have flipped out in the past... but today I was able to sigh, take a deep breath & pick up some glitter from the mountain he spilled on the grass & made it "snow". In no time at all my kids and I were covered in glitter because it was "snowing" so much. I stopped for a moment and thanked God for that exact moment- to see my kids covered in glitter, to hear them shreiking in delight- despite the mess & the clean up... it was wonderful!!! THIS is what I have been waiting for!!! It was awesome!
I went to church today for reconciliation. I remember how I used to hate going...but the priest made me feel at ease. He told me that God doesn't expect us to be perfect, He knows we'll mess up every now and then & that's why He blessed us with His forgiveness.
My husband was watching TV this evening & I starting telling him something so he paused the movie so he could listen. It was nice. I started to walk away, but then I took the oportunity to do the dare. I walked back over to him, sat down next to him, looked him in the eyes & told him, "no matter what happened in the past, no matter what the future holds, I choose to love you always". I said it without tearing up (yay) and without choking up (yay). He said "OK" and that was it. I walked away with a smile on my face and almost giddy. I thanked God again for the strength and courage to do the dare.
It was a good day today :)
When you focus on Christ and His love, you allow Him to work on things around you. And when you set your control and concern aside and do the dares, that shows a level of trust in Christ. It shows growth. And only blessing can come from that.