During college, I got into a great routine of doing a devotional before going to classes and attended InterVarsity Christian Fellowship. My faith really grew while there. Then I started dating my husband. I got distracted. God was put to the sideline. We got married. I still did not have my focus on Christ and my situation is a direct result of that. But God is merciful and has brought me under his fold again. I can tell a major difference when I do not spend time in God's word. I truly need to be submersed in it to be able to live as God wants me too.
It is so funny to me that you can read and repeat the same verses or concepts over and over throughout your life and then at some point that truly hit you. You say like "God is with me" And you repeat it "God is with me" and you understand it in its entirety. Then no words can express what you think and feel and realize. Your best explanation is "God is with me" don't you get it???? Or the statement "God loves me" When you truly grasp the concept, you can't explain it. These dares and God's word have been working on me. I have always been a worry wart. I was always so concerned about what my husband was up to and how he acted around others. Well, I don't care anymore. I don't mean to sound harsh, but what good is it going to do me to worry about it or dwell on it? There is a difference between knowing that and executing it. By executing it, every time a thought comes to mind that would cause me to worry or dwell on what he is doing, I just ignore it. Tell God I don't want to deal with it and it is in his hands. I have no control over it. If I tried to control any situation or how my husband behaves, it would just back fire.
A praise and answered prayer: I am feeling much better. My cold has lasted for the shortest time ever. I have been able to concentrate on getting some studying done to take the GRE next week and have been able to function rather well. Thank you GOD! Still praying for my husband. He has not contacted me. I ask God to protect him from the devil's snares. I ask that he has good health and safe travel when he is going about his work.
It is the need to understand those things that Christ is going to do in this journey. Such things we take for granted are no longer going to be. We are granted with a massive amount of wisdom in this journey.... It is to prepare you. To be a testimony to your spouse? Maybe. But most certainly to be a testimony for each and every person that is within view of this situation.