He just told me this morning that he had a job interview next week in San Antonio. We currently live in Chicago. It made me sad, but he was so excited. At first i felt myself being selfish about the interview and was like what about the baby and my stuff, but then after i said it i apologized and said i would help him in anyway i can. I even offered to look for the flights and car rental. This makes me sad, but if this is what God wants then I will help in anyway. I can't change what's going to happen either way. This could be a good thing. Either way if this is God's plan then what else can i do but help him get where he wants to be.
We have been born into this world. Which has corrupted everything of Christ. The true blessing in this journey is that Christ chose you to lead it. But remember this. It is your testimony that will help bring others to Christ.
These realizations you have are extremely important in your growth. And the voids you have will be filled with Christ.
If you have not, take some time and read all my journals, it will help you with all these new understandings.