I had many chances to blow my top off today.
What I had originally planned to do as an act of kindness blew up in my face and I was being blamed for us not making it!
Well, at the end of the day I saw God use the atmosphere that was set by a simple command of love "to be kind" transform the atmosphere in the house.
We watched TBN's praise the Lord programme and the topic was one that is close to my spouses heart, even though he does not recognise it as such yet.
God told me he has a pastoral annointing on him and that he is " a pators best freind and a pastor of the people"
The programme was about soul winning, and my spouse always talks down churches and pastors but he doesnt do anything about it to make it better.
The message was so good, i could never have cooked this one up and I could see that it was something he was very interested in.
The lesson was that to obey God in being kind, we avoided sitting in different rooms, he on the iphone or watching MTV and me looking at him wondering when God will save him so we can get out of this rat hole!
I can truly say, that God indeed got the glory last night and I had nothing to do with it!
no manipulating or proding, just obeying simple words, love is kind and remembering to be patient.
there were moments where i caught my self giving sarcastic remarks in a joking manner, but i realised that they were just hurtful words and i stopped and repented before God
I hear that !!! I am on day two and I think that I need to start over, when I try to complete the dare I always seem to say the wrong thing out of my mouth but my husbands selfishness just makes me go off! My husband is running from his calling to be a pastor and I am so judgemental against him but who am I to judge. This morning he let me down and I threaten to call my lawyer what a reaction I got. But I was wrong I used it as a manipulation tool not good.
First thing. Read in the appendix about leading the heart... Extremely important. This will allow you to not react to your emotions but lead them.
Don't worry about your husbands walk with Christ just yet. You just started these dares and this journey yourself. Let Christ mold you over the next 40 days. When you pray for your husbands right now just pray for Gods will in their life. Other than that you are taking a big chance that your prayer of faith and salvation are completely selfish hoping that it fixes your problem.
Thank you Sean, hear you.
Hear it.... Now is the time to buckle down and seek Chirsts purpose for you in this journey.