today was very hard....i failed at biting my tounge a couple times....i prayed and cried alot today. also i watched fireproof hence the reason for some of my crying. i decided i was going to get him the peaches he mentioned last night and didnt get much in response. he spent most of family dinner texting his brother and was asleep by eight therefore not even bothering to ask how my day was or even trying to make small talk....god has already made changes in me. i havent been to church in years and i actually find myself excited to go. i pray that i may do better tomorrow with my patience.
Don't worry about your husband at the moment. Christ wants to mold you first. Remember this is a journey between you and Christ, your husband is just a tool in this journey.