So, i did dare 2 today. An unexpected act of kindness. It was odd for this one, but i told my husband he could take the money for an apartment and getting stuff he needed. I surrendered and just let him know that im willing to give anything. I had to do the 3rd day dare because he was leaving my friends house and going to his friends house far away. So i went over and brought him a moutain dew, kit kat, a project i made him, a copy of the love dare and his wedding ring. He was very reluctant to take it and it hurt so bad. I couldnt stop crying over the rejection. I cried for an hour after it. I know its only technically day 2 for me..but man its so hard. I called a pastor i spoke with before and she gave me so many encouraging words and made me eat while she was on the phone because i couldnt for the past 3 days. She explained to me that my son is scared and needs a mommy that will be there and show him everything is alright even when i dont feel alright. I couldnt sleep in the bed anymore so i have been sleeping on the couch. I love my husband with all my heart and i will continue this journey and continue to pray for him every day. this is going to be hard i already know.
Hope,
You have just started this journey. But something that you need to understand. Every single dare will have something for you. And right now, one of the hardest things is to listen to Christ. We are all experts at asking Him. Now we must become experts at listening.
First, this journey is one that is between you and Christ, not your and your husband. We all start this journey for our own selfish reasons... And that is OK. But this is not a "quick Fix", it is a journey.
With that said, this journey is one where you will learn more and more that you cannot manipulate your way or control the situation. God will make sure of that. For example. You probably gave your husband a copy of the dare, thinking if he just does it everything will be OK. Well, you just got your first lesson in humbleness and trusting Christ at the same time.
First, you are trying to manipulate and control the situation by doing that. If you were able to manipulate and control, then you would not be in this position with your marriage. So, take this from someone that was the master at manipulation. It no longer will work. In fact, now that you are on this journey, when you do it, God will bring it to your attention!
You must trust God in every single step. Which also means, do not look ahead. I know he was leaving. But I am telling you. When you submit to Christ, His plan for you will happen in His time and His way. We can no longer do things our way.
Now, following your heart and doing what you think is not going to get your through this. Read in the appendix about the heart.
Also, I have written a number of journals that have helped many here. It would ask you take a look, it may just help you.
I am praying that your journey is one that God molds you and blesses you with wisdom.