I have a personal relationship with Christ and recognize him as my savior who died on the cross for my sins. The only dares that seemed impossible were the ones I couldn't do while my husband wasn't around. When he wouldn't respond (meaning complete silence), it felt pointless to do anymore. My husband cut me off and wouldn't respond to any messages I left him. I recognize the fact that I can not love my husband perfectly as he needs to be loved. I realize that I need to completely submit to God. It has been hard to trust that things will work out between us because he has free will to walk away. I was very focused on my husband's behavior and hinging the outcome of our marriage solely on him. There are days when I am ready to move on and then I feel bad because what if my husband comes around? I would give up "so easily"? I know God lets us have our sinful desires sometimes, but other times he stops us in our tracks. I ask God for the strength and courage to continue doing these dares and to continue loving my husband even though he completely rejects me. I know I am feeling the smallest of a fraction of what Christ felt being rejected. Oh how he must love us! I can't comprehend that much love. I can't wait til I am able to look into Jesus' eyes and feel his complete and wonderful love with no hurt. I long to get a hug from Jesus.
You can love your husband as Christ has intended. But you need to trust Christ as He intended.... That is what this journey is about.