I was really hoping to see more progress by now. Sometimes I just want to scream. She does notice when I'm upset and she does seem concerned, but it just seems like none of this registers for her. She wonders why I'm upset, and I wonder how in the world she could not know, or how she doesn't feel the same hurt.
These dares are getting harder and harder to do. I have so many people telling me to quit, that I can do better, that I don't deserve this, but she is my wife. She is the one I chose to marry, the one person to be with come hell or high water. And I've realized our relationship will never be the same after this. Either this will strengthen our bond together, or this will be the end of us. I have some small shred of hope left that I am holding on to. It's so hard to just let go and put it in God's hands. I know he'll give me what I need in life, and I know that eventually things in my life will be better. But it just feels like falling down a well; the light just seems to be farther and farther away and the darkness becomes so overbearing.
But I'm committed to 40 days, and I'm almost half way there, and I refuse to throw it all away now.
I like the last sentence.
You are going to have to let God deal with her and work on yourself. It is time to let his will be done and not yours. Don't just give him half of it.....make sure you surrender all of it....
That's the enemy telling you to give up. Don't listen to him. He's very seductive. Stop it at the root with scripture and prayer. I even fasted for the first time in my life a couple of months ago. Powerful stuff. Keep focusing on God, and not the situation.
You are saying the exact thing I am hearing. EVERYONE is telling me to stop beating myself up. I long for my wife, I ache for her touch, but she walked away from me for reasons that are still unknown to me. Maybe it was the weight loss, maybe it's menopause, maybe she really did just stop loving me, however I can not stop loving her! I have been praying almost constantly for her conversion. I miss my wife! I miss holding her in my arms. I am so sad and lonely, I am grieveing my wife and she is still inthe house. I am praying that I can stay out of Jesus's way so he can do what he is going to do. Oh Jesus please give me the strenght to endure this for the sake of my marriage! Or let me stop loving her and move on. This hurts so much!!!! Mercy Jesus, please give me peace!
Daren, Glad to hear it... When you start trusting the Lord, you will be comforted. You will move on better. If you are doing the dare, stop your selfishness... You need to be ready to accept Christ and what he has to offer.
This may be your calling to get right with God. Now do it, and start living the life of happiness. We are all here to help.