God has blessed me throughout this journey by replacing my tears with smiles & replacing my anger with love. I have had a couple people in my family say that I've had a year to process everything & that's why I'm doing so much better after he left this time verses when he left this time last year. I cannot believe though, that if God wasn't here with me that I would ever be so strong right now. And even more than strong... but I have been able to truly forgive, to truly know and understand how to love & to truly trust. Even when I started this journey back in October, yea I was telling everyone I'd be fine... but inside so much pain overwhelmed me. I was still so angry with him for everything. I still blamed him for everything. And as my journey with God continued, I was graced with gifts of wisdom & understanding & strength & courage & love. I am convinced I would be a wreck right now if I hadn't returned back to God.
I'm so lucky to be on this journey. I am so lucky to be blessed by God with so many blessings in my life. I am so lucky, that finally, i understand and know how to truly love someone unconditionally. And looking at all the blessings I have, I know God will continue to bless me with even more happiness & love that I can share with others.
I always love hearing people of the world tell us why we are doing so much better. Because it is those people that end up coming to us when their time to get right has come. Why? Because they then realize that our trials were truly blessed by Christ.
You testimony is shinning through. They are to blind to see it right now.