I gave my boyfriend the book yesterday after asking the questions and him saying that there was no longer an us. I hope that God puts it in his heart to do the dares and mainly I pray that God can enter his heart and give him the peace that only he can give us. The harder dare was getting him to tell me what things irritate him about me and also getting him to spend "us" time. He does not want to hang out with me just wants to hang out with our daughter and I. It is so hard, he has openly told me that he is hanging out with the girl that he cheated on me with. I try to hold on to the scripture that says "If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them." Luke 6:29. But when is enough, enough? He has brought somebody else into our life and says he does not want to lie to me about it because that is an even bigger disrespect. I want to commit to these 40 days specially since I am almost half way done but knowing that he could possibly be with that woman makes me want to put physical space between us and pray to God to heal my heart and enter his heart.
I should also act that I acknowledge that I cannot do it without God, yes I need to change many things that I do in relationships. But I need to completly surrender my life to the Lord and let him fight my battle. My human love is not enough to help me give my boyfriend that unconditional love because I do not have that unconditional love. God is the one that gives me that love and I crave that love.
I posted on your last post. Please take a look so I do not have to repeat it here.
First. This dare is a journey between you and Christ. Your boyfriend is just a tool used. You must allow Christ to mold you. So, focus on you and your journey right now. Leave him to Christ.
When you pray, pray for your needs. The need to be understanding, the need to be patient, the need to have an open heart for Christ and the Holy Spirit.
There is great guidance in the appendix on prayer. And right now, when you pray for him, leave out the prayers that are selfish ones. for example- mainly I pray that God can enter his heart and give him the peace that only he can give us. You see where you pray that God enter his heart but that is for "us", not him. That is a prayer for you not him.
Be very careful when you pray for him. It is OK to pray for him, but are you only praying for peace for him so that things work out for the both of you? If you truly are praying for him, pray as if no matter what happens it is for him. Be it you stay together or not.
Why do you say you do not have that unconditional love? After all the things going on you are still there. You are still trying. That is the start of unconditional. Now the hard part is for you to accept Christ in your heart and be able to forgive.