Another amazing day! It began with my husband going to church with us this morning on his own accord. I didn't even ask if he would like to come with us, he just got dressed and got in the car with us :) AND the pastor of the church said our mass this morning & my husband really enjoyed him. He still complained a little bit because our kids get REALLY difficult after about 1/2 the mass. I noticed a flyer in the back of the church for babysitting during mass for babies up to 4 years old- so next time we go to church, I might drop off our 2 youngest ones there. We will see. ALso, today's theme was redemption and forgiveness. It was a good day for my husband to choose to come to church with us :)
The rest of the day was just normal... and I didn't get to read my dare for today until the afternoon. So when I read it I was a little taken off track about making dinner for just the two of us. I asked God to help. So I made dinner for the kids a little early & when they were finished I let them watch some cartoons. I made up my husbands plate & put it on the table hoping he would sit and eat at the table & not on the couch. I sat at the table and a few moments later, he came in and sat down :) It was a decent meal. The boys were completely engrossed in the cartoons, but our 15 month old daughter kept coming in and out of the kitchen. But it was more privacy than any other day. Also, this time around I had the courage to ask him a few of the questions from the list of 20. I didn't get through all of them, acctually only about 3 or 4, but I didn't want to have the book in my lap & I tried to remember the questions as best as I could. Also to my surprise, he had no problem answering them. There was no retaliation about why I'm asking him this stuff or anything... it was nice. UNTIL, he went off on a tangent and brought up moving again. He spent a few minutes talking about how I need to ask my parents if I can stay at one of thier apartments for free because he wont be able to afford anything if he has to pay my rent ans his rent & all our other expenses. I was nice about it & tried to get off the topic & told him that these are all things that need considering & we really shouldn't make hastey decisions. He came back and said I need to think about it and make a choice soon. I told him God will help us work it out. He kind of scoffed at me and said that there are things GOd helps with and other things you need to take initiative in and just do. He made an analogy about a person about to jump off a bridge and asking God if he will stop them from jumping... I told him it's like the story in the bible when satan tries to tempt Jesus to jump off the cliff and the Angels will catch Him if it is God's will. I told my husband that trusting God isn't about seeing THEN believing, it's about believing THEN seeing. He told me not to preach to him. Our conversation moved onto the groceries he needs for this upcoming week & then it was time to come to the rescue of my daughter who was throwing a tantrum! The whole time, though, I was smiling. And I was praying to God thanking Him for everything! And as soon as I could find a few minutes to myself, I went into my bedroom and formally prayed to God thanking Him for all that has transpired here today.
My husband told me today that he won't be joining us for Christmas eve dinner with my family (it's our tradition) but he would like it if his mom could join us at our house for Christmas day. I told him that would be fine.
I just can't stop thinking about how great the Lord is! I've known that He is with me this whole time, but I just see so many things going on. In me, within my family & even in my husband. I don't know what's going to happen, but my faith is with the Lord always!
It has to stay that way.... No matter how well things go, we can no longer go back to our ways.
Praise God always in good and bad, because He blesses us always.