I read through todays dare twice because I couldn't believe how much I missed the first time through the dares. It especially struck me about how you must regain the intimacy & trust, it won't happen overnight. I feel like in my head I knew that, but never really validated it. I also really thought about "being 'naked' and 'not ashamed'"... I see how in the past we had become closed off to one another slowly. I see how walls were slowly put back up again. I realize how we were walking on eggshells and instead of feeling safe, we were feeling scared. I also know I chose to overlook it.
I know over the past few weeks I have been coming more and more out of my shell & letting the wall come back down again. I've been singing and dancing around the house- by myself, with the kids, in the shower, whatever!!! I don't feel like I have to hide my crackling voice or lack of rhythm from my husband anymore. I know I am not perfect, and I don't expect perfection from him. And I know that until I take the chance to be "naked" in front of him all the time, he won't be able to begin taking down his barriers.
I do think that slowly he might be trying to take down a brick at a time...I understand now that it will take time. I've been blessed that the Lord has given me the wisdom to see this now. I thank Him always for the small things He is doing with my husband...and I am grateful always for bringing peace to our home. No more walking on eggshells, no more fear of one another & eachothers opinions.
Continue to put Christ first. And trust Him with everything in your life. A happiness will come over you no matter what comes your way. Just leave it with Christ.