I felt good & different praying for my husband today. I have been praying for him for a looooong time now, but something about today was different. I feel like I should be accepting the small positive changes I see instead of waiting for a huge grande apology/get back together production! I think that's what is different. I don't need a huge apology, i don't need one at all. I don't need a huge celebration if he wants to come back to this relationship & i don't want a pity party if he doesn't want to. I just want small everything. I had my chance at big: big house, big wedding, fancy cars...and where has that brought me? It definately wasn't what made me happy because as we are in a smaller place and nearly broke, I am more happy than ever before. I see all the gifts I have and what really does matter.
So I prayed for him. I asked that the Lord hear my husbands prayers and answer them as He see fit. I prayed that my husband might begin to trust in the Lord to ease his worries and stress. I prayed for love & honor to never fade. Finally, I asked that in all things, may His will be done, not ours. I realize how much I think I know my husband, but the thing I fail to see is how much better God knows him. I want my husband to be happy & I pray he finds his way back to Christ so that he might spend this life and all of eternity in happiness.
In all things, i am so blessed. I have beautiful, healthy children. I have an amazing husband. I have food/shelter & clothing in abundance. And I have God walking beside me. I don't need anything more.
Praise God.... And I will tell you. It is your testimony each day that will open your husbands eyes. That is why God has put you on this journey first!