I tried to honor him today by doing little things for him today. The morning started out a little shaky cuz I could not keep my mouth shut and asked him some questions about the affair. I fought the urge to do that the rest of the day and when I got home. It serves no purpose but to make me feel worse and bring up more questions. I turned to GOD for strength and for him to please take these burdens and thoughts away. I felt I could honor him best by just being still. He keeps asking if I'm ok or if anything is wrong since I am so quiet and I simply respond no. He's used to me being more vocal and engaging. Like Sean said BE STILL and KNOW THAT I AM GOD. I'm trying to focus on that and let GOD do what he needs to do in my life. I don't want to get in the way anymore. I don't want to be miserable or sad anymore. I want to be happy and delight in GOD's love which I know is there for me.
When he asks. No is not just the answer.
Let him know God is getting you there, for you to be OK. And that you love him period!
I guess that is part of my selfishness by being quiet, cold and withdrawn. I am not being myself. I'm finding it challenging to be myself yet also be what GOD would want me to be. I think the key is how I react and when. That I know must change. I think it's a great idea to let him know Yes I will be OK because GOD is helping me every step of the way. And yes I have been telling him that I love him.
Now that you are walking with Christ. It is through God's guidance we can now make choices about the emotions that will affect our ongoing thinkin and actions.
You can start to take action- positive action, instead of operating in a mode of continuious reaction.