3-28-10
Well I made my list and kept it in my diary. With today being unlucky 13 it lived up to its reputation. We got together only to fill out paperwork online and how money was going to be divided. She signed the papers right away so I looked over them and signed myself. I did ask her one more time if this is really what she wanted and she replied "yes" so I went on with what she wanted to do. She states that there is nothing left in her to try anymore so once we was done she left and went to her friends house to stay the night.
I shouldn't have done it but i got in her phone and was reading her text and seen where she has already been with guys in her friends hottub. Really hurts to read but i guess that is what I get for my actions.
Almost ready to quit this.......feels like I am getting no where :(
God is still in control. You are right where God wants you to be...where you have to depend on Him for your sanity. I know, I'm there. You are getting somewhere, but it's not on your timetable. Keep plugging away.
dont give up.