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Forgot everything I learnt

Forgot everything I learnt

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  • Yesterday was so tough for me again, I didn't have a disagreement with my husband but felt I started one by speaking to him in the first place, and ended up throwing the washing basket at him... He swore at me and pushed me... I cried for 4 hours straight reprimanding myself because I feel as if i have forgotten everything I've learnt in the last few days... 

     

    I know I am supposed to be moulded into a better person but sometimes my emotions are so overwrought, I forget to let go...

    I have realised the true reason this book was brought to my attention is for me to become a better person, whether it is with my husband or not... I don't want to be angry or bitter, sitting and crying because I want so badly to be a better person... Yesterday was a point I reached where I wished he would leave me alone for good to continue with my life, so I can become a change woman...

    I know God will never forsake me and give me anything I can't handle but I am afraid I will crack under the pressure...

    Please pray for me, this is so tough on me and my son sees his mother in distress and it makes me feel worse...

     

  • My husband also said "I am following my heart, this is what I am meant to do, I am looking for someone to be my world" I smiled and said "ok, I am leading my heart looking for everything that is Godly" so strange how we pick up on these small things we would've missed otherwise.

  • Don't beat yourself up....this is a journey that is teaching us over time how to become Christlike.  You may have had a rough patch, brush it off and keep going.  Think of paul and Barnabus in Act 14.....even after being persecuted and nearly stoned to death, they brushed off and continued to the mission God called them to!  Brush yourself off, and move forward.....this isn't the frist nor the last time you're going to slip up!  Don't let it hold you down :)

  • Thanks Lisa, I work with someone who did the Dares and she won't allow me to give up :) I went back and re-read the last 14 days to remind myself why I'm doing it

  • In the appendix is a section about leading the heart. Take some time to look on it and pray about it.

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