need does your spouse have that you could meet today? Choose a gesture that
says, ‘I cherish you’ and do it with a smile.”
When I read today’s dare it hit me like a ton of bricks – it
is time to send “that” email. The past few days my husband has wanted me to
send an email to our realtor (family friend) regarding options about the house.
I said I would (I am kind of questioning why I even said this), but have been
stalling because I don’t want to have a part in progressing this divorce. I
have had it written, but never sent it. I prayed about it all day because I don’t
understand how this need of my husband’s says, “I cherish you.” I felt a peace
about sending it, but still wanted to fight it.
What made me want to fight it even more is that my husband asked
me to be his friend again on facebook. I know that probably sounds so
ridiculous, but it really hurt when he took me off as his wife a few weeks ago,
so I was elated when I got back from lunch at work to see an email requesting
to be his friend. I thought, well, if he is doing that, why do I need to send
this email to the realtor? He obviously has some feelings left…or so I thought.
I went to Bible Study tonight and got home to the news on
facebook that a friend of my elementary/junior high/high school/church’s
community passed away today. Breaks my heart! In the midst of tears and
thoughts of how life is just too short – I was going to post something on my
husband’s facebook wall to express something to the extent that life is short and that I still love and
cherish him. That will be my gesture for today instead of hitting the “send”
button on the email to the realtor. As I start typing his name to go to his
facebook page – it doesn’t come up. Sure enough he removed me as a friend again.
In the matter of just a few short hours ago I was elated – I get knocked back down.
I asked God throughout the day to give me clarity regarding sending the email
and sure enough I got it. Email sent!
I am still not quite understanding why I felt so compelled
to send it as today’s dare because I do not grasp how that is showing my
husband how I cherish him, but for some reason God was wanting me to do it and
I cannot get in the way of that as I was obviously shown.
Is it not amazing how much even the little things cause so much problem with us in our lives. Yet we ignore or set God aside daily and never think twice what we do to Him.
One good practice in this journey. When you feel these moments of disappointment, look at your relationship with Christ and see if you realize the small things we may disappoint Christ in our relationship.
This is where things will start to change in our daily lives. Remember this journey is really between you and Christ!