Day 10 love is unconditional

"Do Something Out of the ordinary for your spouse. Something that proves your love is based my choice and nothing else. " So for the last three days i had no contact with him. I prayed for him. He did get the job he went to interview for. Just has to do a background check which i know he will pass. I also used that time to pray about myself. Part of me wants to move on and let go, but the bigger part wants what we had and more. When i got back sunday he did text me. I didn't answer and he called. We talked for a bit. It was good to just talk to him and hear what he did all weekend. He asked me about the retreat and I told him it was eye opening. He could tell i was tired so he decided to get off the phone. I asked if he was coming by in the morning so i could go to group therapy and he said yes. This morning he showed up and he was very affectionate with me. Hugging and kissing me. I went to therapy and on the way back I got him so roses and his favorite donut. I got to the house and i put one white rose on his windshield with a note that says {"I Adore you". Then on the other side it said "look in your truck bed :)". In the back was a dozen red roses and a vanilla long john with a note that said " I love you forever still i hope this sweetens your day." Went to the house and we talked and hugged. When he left he was surprised. He texted me saying thank you. It felt good. In the past i have done things like this even if we were mad at each other. I just hope he sees that it's all from my heart. That i love him regardless of what happens. Lets see what tomorrow brings...

Natalie -

Welcome back! That was a really sweet gesture you did for your husband.

Something you said reminded me of a quote (I am all about inspirational quotes). You said the bigger part of you wants what you had and more. I always thought that too - I want what we once had...and of course more. As I have progressed through this journey I realized, I don't want what we once had though it seems a heck of a lot better than the storms I've been going through and still have to go through, BUT what we once had is what got us/me to where I am now. So the quote I was referring to - "The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was and the present worse than it is." That way of thinking often got me stuck wishing about the past being my future, but not anymore. Thank God for that! I see you are well on your way to that frame of thinking too.

Through this journey. When you do reconcile, if it is every the way it was before you will know there is a problem!

Well I guess what i want is for us to be like we were in the beginning.  love birds... lol.. of course i don't want problems, but i know they will still be there.  I just pray that if we do reconcile that we will handle the problems better than we have before.  

Even then... Being love birds was without the love Christ has and will bless you with. It is like nothing you could imagine. Just wait and see....