I'm still walking the walk and have chosen not to talk the talk.
I'm still walking with Jesus, going through the dares a second time, and studying my bible every day. I've made significant changes in my heart over the past 60 days, however, I can't be sure it's had much of an effect on my wife. I don't talk to her about us anymore, I just do the best I can to build my relationship with God and pray for her.
I can't say I'm not frustrated at times, I am. But those times i do get frustrated or down, I pick up the book, or my bible, and read. It helps, and that's all I can really do right now.
First of all, I'm glad to hear you haven't given up :)
Secondly... it IS hard/frustrating sometimes & I do the same, just pray when times are tough. But don't forget to also pray when things are good...
It has helped me to become more aware of all the good, verses the negative. It's hard though because everywhere you go you see the negative: the way people act unkidly toward one another, the "advice" people try to give you, etc. I am finally at a point where I can see/hear the negative & immediately make it into a positive.
Take it a day at a time & just trust in the Lord :)
I know it is hard to continue when you (or the flesh) cannot see obvious things. However, Christ is preparing you to be the testimony you need to be. In this second round open yourself to see if there are any shortcommings you may have.
I do not know if you read the journals people write in the journal section. But there are a couple people there that have been through this 2, 3 or even 4 times before they got to reconciliation. Maybe take some time to read over a couple. Stephen has a tremendous testimony and is now at the reconciliation point.
Another thing that will help is daily postings. We are here not only to help, but hold accountable, which is very important.